2009 has been a rather mixed bag for us. Up until 3 weeks ago, I would have told you it was a pretty crappy year. W was retrenched, we had a failed IVF and a FET that resulted in my 7th miscarriage and a bunch of other personal tragedies to deal with. I was looking forward to having the year over with, I had the internal dialogue I’ve had every year for the past 7 and a half years…. perhaps next year will be our year? Perhaps 2010 would bring us the child we’d longed for for so long. Perhaps 2010 would see the end of my miscarriages and success in starting a family.
Of course, up until 3 weeks ago, I had no idea that one little angel was going to come along and turn my world upside down. This time 3 weeks ago, we were anxiously preparing for our trip to Cape Town to meet our Birth Mum. Up till 3 weeks ago, I was still in utter disbelief at what could potentially be unfolding in our lives.
Now, on the eve of 2010, I can honestly say that 2009 has turned out to be one of the greatest, if not the greatest year for W and I. We have been so richly blessed by the birth of our miracle daughter. In an instant she swooped in on her angel wings and healed the hurts and pain and dried the tears of the past 7 and a half years.
So what could I possibly have to hope for for 2010?
Two things actually, two very important things…
- That we get through our 60 days and that the final adoption is declared at midnight on Saturday, 13th February. That our precious angel will be forever ours!
- That my precious IF sisters can be richly blessed in 2010. Of course, we all have difficult paths to follow, but I pray for those who are destined to adopt that they will receive their miracle child through the gift of adoption. For those destined to carry their own babies to term through the aid of fertility treatment, that you may have uneventful textbook pregnancies and for those who are destined for other paths, that you find peace, love and joy in your lives.
Happy New Year everyone!