I’m stuck in a big fat writing/blogging slump at the moment. I’m not a hundred percent sure of what has brought it on, but I’m battling. Feeling lazy and uninspired. The thing is, blogging used to be fun, it still is… sometimes. But lately it’s like the blogging space has changed and I’m just not sure where I fit in or if I want to or if I even like it.
I started blogging back in 2008 as a way to express of my darker thoughts and struggles with infertility. Back then I only read other infertility blogs, we were a small, committed, passionate community and blogging was all about sharing your own personal journey. I’ve always wanted my blog, at it’s very essence to stay true to that, I’m a firm believer that what keeps readers coming back is my ability to share personal stories and experiences and this is true of the blogs I read and follow too. It’s easy for me to blog that way, I’ll have a thought or an idea or experience, sit down at my computer and just let the worlds fall through my mind, out through my tapping fingers onto my keyboard. It was relaxing and freeing and I enjoyed it so very much.
But there are so many blogging groups and newsletters and clicks and clans and what not lately and it really does feel like it has sucked the fun out of sharing. I’ll admit, I’ve also stopped following a lot of blogs for the very same reason, I don’t feel connected to the writers and a lot of the blog posts have become about brands and PR’s and not personal stories anymore, and frankly, it’s all become a bit boring.
While I do love the press drops and the few events I actually get to attend, because so many of these happen during the week and I work so 99% of the time I always have to decline, and I will continue to share about products and experiences that I enjoy and think you may enjoy, I don’t want my blog to become soulless, I want it to still reflect the very essence of who I am, what I’m about and what I enjoy.
If you’ve never had a blog, you may be surprised by the amount of work that actually goes into it. All the resources I have saved, the free stock websites I trawl for images, the products and PR drops that need to be carefully and prettily photographed and edited, the media briefs that I spend hours reading and thinking about, trying to come up with a fresh angle and write in a way that still reflects me and not just a press drop. Not to mention the blogging groups with there tips and guides and make no mistake, I have learned a ton from other amazing bloggers and the advice they share in these groups, but somewhere along the way, it feels like it’s stopped being fun, I feel like I’m constantly balancing a tightrope, trying to fit in other bloggers, follow the general rules and guidelines, not let the PR’s and Brands down who have put their faith in me and my little space on the web and still remain true to myself and putting me forward on my blog, in the most authentically version of myself possible.
It’s tiring and I’m just so uninspired and feeling MEH about it all at the moment.
I think it’s also that time of year. We’re in peak trading at the office, it will be frantic and insane till the end of the year, I come home exhausted and see to what needs to be done at home. By the time I have a moment to sit down at my laptop, it’s late, I’m tired and my brain is fried. I land up sitting there, going through my notebook, with all my little blogging notes and blogging ideas, stare into space and then chuck it all in and go to bed!
I really really really want to write. I don’t have much talent with things creative, but I love to write, so I really hope this big fat meh writing slump passes soon!