And So It Begins….

Time To Take Care

One of the things I’ve also committed to doing this year is taking better care of me and my health.

Its only now, after my years of infertility are behind me that I realize just how severely I abused my body in the years of treatment. If I wasn’t jabbing needles filled with hormones into my stomach and bum, I was shoving pessaries of hormones up my va-jay-jay and when that all failed I was punishing my body with excess, never denying myself anything, trying to suppress my sadness and grief my shoving it down deep inside me and topping it all up with food & wine.

Then Ava was born and suddenly I embarked on a year of celebration. Once again not denying myself a single thing, if I wanted it, I had it and I had it in excess. My weight and my health are paying the price of 7+ years of abuse followed by a year of celebration and its taking its toll on me. My pants are so tight I feel like I’m being squeezed in half and am choosing comfort over style – dudes, I’ve even taken to wearing maternity pants ‘cos they’re so comfy over my round belly! I have no energy and I’m tired… like ALL the time. I’ve been plagued with colds, I’ve got about my 6th or 7th cold in the space of a year. And these are just the issues which are noticeable, not even including the things I can’t see like my blood pressure, my insulin levels and cholesterol. I feel so bad about myself that it really has far reaching effects on my personal life and my self esteem and you know with low self esteem and feeling yucky come other issues like NO sex drive which in turn have a knock on effect on my marriage.

One of the things I promised myself & in fact Walter and I promised each other was that from this year, we were going to start taking better care of ourselves. I need to get in better shape because I want to feel better about myself and because I want to have more energy to care for Ava and of course our “maybe-baby”.

So this week my plan starts to take shape…

I’ve joined a private pilates studio and will be once a week attending a semi private class that includes the use of pilates machines, the instructor has assured me that carrying excess wait is not a problem because pilates is based on using your own body weight to exercise, I will get maximum benefit as my excess wait will force me to work harder. She’s put me into the absolute beginners class and assures me that once a week at this stage will be more than enough and once I develop strength I can move into a beginners/intermediate class and go more regularly.

I also have an appointment at Ann Till & Associates on Friday. I haven’t been back to them in more than a year so I’ve booked to start the process all over again, from the assessment appointment and I just know that Claire is going to use her “take-no-prisoners” approach on me and its exactly what I need.

I started trying to take better care of myself from last week when I returned to work and am already feeling the benefits. I only drank wine ONCE last week on Thursday and went out walking a few times and already I’m starting to feel better.

So here’s to a year of taking care of me!

13 Comments

  • waiting4amiracle

    January 17, 2011 at 3:43 pm

    I am also giving it a go!! For me, I reckon weigh-less and excercise (Spinning and Yoga), three times a week. I have given myself a goal to shed 6kg’s before my B-day in April. It really is virtually impossible to eat properly while I’m staying in a hotel….so the work starts when I get back. Good luck!!

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  • wheresmybun

    January 18, 2011 at 9:25 am

    Good luck hon! Losing weight is so incredibly difficult for me. I just cannot do diets at all. If I even think of dieting I start binging. I hope you are successful and I really hope and pray your maybe baby makes his/her appearance very soon!

    BTW I love her b/day pics. She’s so gorgeous she takes my breath away. I love that child of yours!

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  • tzipieastwest

    January 18, 2011 at 10:39 am

    To feel good is the best thing !
    Good luck in taking the steps towards it. The fact that you feel better with some minor adjustment is really encouraging ….

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  • rumneym

    January 18, 2011 at 12:04 pm

    Hi Shaz. I had a rally bad 4 months with my health at the end of last year. I was so depressed about being sick all the time. My GP ended up giving me Intragram injections which seemed to help. But I bought Immnocare Tablets from the health shop and took them for a month solid. I now feel lots better.
    Best of luck with everything. I’m sure you will feel better soon.

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  • Mash

    January 19, 2011 at 1:12 pm

    People always think I’m such a boring sod, but my one big rule in life is about alcohol – I don’t drink at home. At times when I’m visiting people or we go away for a few days and have a drink in the evenings together, I find that my body feels so sluggish and YECH. Also booze makes you hungrier, and is full of calories and sugar. I think you are on the right track to a healthier and happier you – good luck!

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  • To Love Bella

    January 20, 2011 at 6:50 am

    I am going through a similar phase now – completely hating myself and berating myself for all those glasses of champers / handfuls of crisps, etc!!
    You are going to LOOOOVE Pilates!! I was hooked from day one. People don’t realise just how HARD you actually do work, and believe-you-me, you do work up quite a sweat at times!
    All the best with this Sharon – there’s nothing better than that happiness you feel once you start seeing your rewards!
    xx

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  • yvettene

    January 30, 2011 at 5:47 pm

    Good Luck with the healthy lifestyle! I made no new years resolutions but need to do something because I have toally lost control since stopping ttc.

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