Beta Beat Up!

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This is all completely surreal. I wonder when it will start to sink in? Its been 3 years since I was last pregnant, I was 34 years old. Its weird, even my beta points are almost exactly the same as they were back then.

My first thought after receiving the news about my positive beta test was to start panicking about my beta count because I felt it was a tad bit on the low side. Initially my clinic didn’t want to give it to me, they just kept assuring me that it was perfect and within normal range for where I’m at in my cycle. But after a lot of nagging they eventually relented. So I went and checked out Beta Base and it would appear they’re right. For where I’m at – 12dpo – I’m smack in the middle of normal range!

Given my history, its extremely difficult to sit back and enjoy the ride, but I’m going to try my very best to do that. For now, I’m trying to just live in the moment, as hard as that is. For now, I’m trying to let the words “I am pregnant” sink in and I’m trying to bask in the joy of what that is supposed to mean.

I will worry about doubling beta’s on Tuesday. I’m going to work hard at being “normal” and try not to let myself spiral downwards into a cesspool of fear and what if’s.

P.S To the literally hundres of emails and messages and sms’s and twitter messages I received yesterday, thank you thank you thank you!!!!! Your love and support is so appreciated, I’m so touched by everyone’s responses. I will respond to everyone as soon as I get the chance!

I’ve had a couple of questions re. how I was 12dpo & 9dp5trf, so I’ve included a picture of my chart as an explanation:

myFETchart

If you read the chart as follows:

CM – actually shows the day I had the bit of spotting, day 20 of my cycle, 2dp5trf and 5dpo.

Then you’ll see my first HPT’s started showing + at 7dpo or 4dp5trf.

Hence my very early blood test was done at 12dpo and 9dp5trf.

Hope that helps makes sense of it???

October 9, 2009
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24 Comments

  • Reply Lea White

    This is your moment. Savour it, enjoy it, this is what you have worked so hard towards. I’m so very very happy for you.

    October 9, 2009 at 5:38 am
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    I’m curious…how are you 12DPO? Aren’t you 9dp5dt making 14DPO? Or do you count it differently for frozen cycles. I know nothing about them…

    October 9, 2009 at 5:52 am
  • Reply Pamela

    Woooh freaking hoo!!!! Congrats, girlfriend!

    October 9, 2009 at 6:21 am
  • Reply monica lemoine

    THIS IS AWESOME Shaz! Congrats, girlfriend! I like your “taking it day by day” approach combined with undertones of excitement. I’m trying to master that art myself. Fingers crossed for you – this is great news!

    October 9, 2009 at 6:38 am
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    Wow, your home tests must pick up the most minimal amount of hCG!

    October 9, 2009 at 6:40 am
  • Reply Stacey

    YES!!!! This is fantastic news! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I was just thinking the other day how awesome it would be to hear this news from you. 🙂

    October 9, 2009 at 7:15 am
  • Reply Esperanza

    I’m in exactly the same place you are. DPO14 and hoping like hell I’m not having another ectopic. Surprisingly my obgyn decided I didn’t need to get beta’s and I’m kind of glad, as the wait always killed me. So I’m trying to ride it out, blissfully ignorant of what may or may not be happening. The reality is, my betas doubled until the day before I was in the ED realizing I had an ectopic, so they won’t put my mind at ease anyway. I know how hard the waiting and wondering is. Good luck!

    October 9, 2009 at 7:29 am
  • Reply Jenny

    Shaz – did I mention how everybody I know is pregnant? Good thing you sat next to me at VL 😉

    October 9, 2009 at 7:57 am
  • Reply Elize

    I’m SO incredibly proud of you hon! Congratualtions again! Enjoy your weekend, and have fun!

    October 9, 2009 at 8:40 am
  • Reply Amanda

    I pray that you have a stunning pregnancy and that you enjoy every minute of it until you meet your LO.

    October 9, 2009 at 9:59 am
  • Reply sassy

    Again, sweetie, I am so happy for you. Again, congratulations. I know you deserve this, and I am going to keep you in my thoughts and prayers for a wonderful, smooth, beautiful pregnancy and a healthy baby.

    October 9, 2009 at 10:14 am
  • Reply CalT

    YIPPEEEE again. I am just so thrilled for you that you finally get some great news!

    October 9, 2009 at 11:52 am
  • Reply Cruella Deville

    Whooooooohooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SO SO SO happy for you Sharon!!!!! Congratulations on your pregnancy, may you have the healthiest, happiest pregnancy ever. I can`t tell you how excited I was when I read your previous posts. I`m praying hard that in 8 months time we will see photos of your LO (`s) right here on this blog. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
    xxxx

    October 9, 2009 at 12:06 pm
  • Reply Misty

    This is awesome. So much happy thoughts and congrads coming your way! See, told u it was implantation bleeding! This is your time, Shaz. This one’s going to stick. Congratulations 🙂

    October 9, 2009 at 12:23 pm
  • Reply WiseGuy

    I understand the taking it by the day approach! Woohooo! Woohoo! Woohoo!

    October 9, 2009 at 12:35 pm
  • Reply Adel

    Jipee!! Congratulations.

    Thinking of you.

    October 9, 2009 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply Kait

    Sharon, Answering your question, I guess she figures if it’s not viable I’ll miscarry and I’ll know that I’m miscarrying. Part of me wants to ask for at least one beta, but I really don’t think it’s going to put my mind at ease. I had already started cramping and bleeding pretty bad last time, and my last beta came back doubled and it brought me so much more hope than I would have had. And yet that day (that I got the result) I ended up in the ER for 12 hours, eventually getting an MVA to determine I had an ectopic and MTX shots to resolve it. So I feel like the beta’s aren’t really going to tell me anything ahead of time anyway, so I don’t feel I really need them. Plus, I have a lot of anxiety issues, and waiting 24 hours to get a call with the result kills me. I do have an appointment at 6 weeks (if I make it to then without spotting) to determine that the pregnancy is in the right place. These two weeks are going to be brutal. Actually, it’s the second week that will be brutal, because that is the week (week 5) when I started bleeding last time. I’ll be waiting for it every day.

    October 9, 2009 at 4:35 pm
  • Reply Kristin

    I am so damned HAPPY for you Sharon! WOooohooooooo!

    October 9, 2009 at 4:42 pm
  • Reply wifey

    oh congrats Sharon! What wonderful news – you’ve waited so long!

    October 9, 2009 at 5:03 pm
  • Reply Quiet Dreams

    Congratulations…I’m so happy for you.

    I was reading you over at your old address, but I didn’t make the switch over for some reason. I saw the announcement on LFCA, and wanted to let you know how happy I am for you. Also want to let you know, that I had to switch blogs as well (for privacy reasons). (I used to be b.ecomin.g who.le, but that blog is no more.)

    So I am putting your new blog on my reader, and will be catching up as soon as I can.

    I am really brimming with joy for you–you are such a beautiful person and it really overflows into your writing.

    October 9, 2009 at 6:45 pm
  • Reply Kirsty

    Congrats again sharon! And you so have the right attitude… one day at a time, revelling in each moment x

    October 9, 2009 at 8:00 pm
  • Reply Yvonne

    OMW OMW OMW!!!
    I’m so, so, so blerrie happy for you, congrats!
    That’s wonderful news.
    I really wish a very sticky, easy pregnancy for you 🙂
    xx

    October 9, 2009 at 10:58 pm
  • Reply jan

    OMG! OMG!OMG!!!!!!! Im so freakin excited for you !! I just burst into tears at your news!! thinknig and praying for you my friend!!! wooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

    October 10, 2009 at 12:39 am
  • Reply nicky

    Congratulations to you and W, very happy for you. Will continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy!

    October 10, 2009 at 5:28 am
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