I’m taking a page our of Cindy’s book… (blog?) and writing a “Currently” blog post because I feel the need to purge and write about a whole bunch of things, but I’m in kind of a bad space & I lack the time, concentration and words to dedicate an entire blog post to each issue.
I have a severe case of Endofyearitis which is not being helped by the immense pressure I’m under at the office. Worse still, everyone around me is in the same boat so there is a lot of snappy and generally douchey behavior going on. I’m wound up like a tightly coiled spring. My back hurts and I’m very very irritable.
And you know what irritates me? Even when I’m not irritable? Mouth breathers, coffee slurpers, people who hum/whistle and people who ignore you or don’t acknowledge your presence when you need to discuss something with them. Currently I’m dealing with two of the 4 I’ve mentioned and given my heightened state of irritation I’m afraid I’m going to blow!
It was #WorldAdoptionDay on Sunday and as part of the campaign, I shared this photo to the groups Face Book page & someone reported my photo is inappropriate!
I get that there is a huge community, particularly in America, which is very anti-adoption because of the type of industry it is over there & the levels of coercion that go on in getting birth mom’s to surrender their baby’s, but really, flagging my image as inappropriate? I was also attacked on Twitter by an anti-adoption campaigner, very rudely I’d add, about how adoption is tantamount to child trafficking… er… ok then! And how children should remain within their family unit, even orphans, and that if they don’t have any family to take them in, then we have failed them. A very simplistic and rather idealistic view but anyway, I don’t have time to waste on people like that so I just blocked. Luckily Face Book decided that my image was in fact not inappropriate or offensive and so it remained up.
I’m tired, gatvol and frustrated at the moment. Nothing seems to be going to plan. My stomach is in a knot permanently and I feel on the verge of tears. We have no end of year holiday to look forward to, cancelled due to lack of funding. It’s the silly season, it’s Ava’s birthday and Christmas and then Hannah’s birthday.
Mostly I just want to sit down and have a good cry. Speaking of which, I have cried twice in the toilets at the office in the past two weeks, THAT’s the kind of pressure I’m under.
It kind of just feels like I have no where to turn. Walter is also under huge pressure and between our highly stressful jobs, two kids, three dogs, bonds and home etc etc, we’re like two ships passing in the night. Hamsters running at full speed on the wheel of life but it feels like we’re getting to no where.
Guys, I need a holiday. I need a time out. I need a mani and pedi. I need a grown up’s evening out. I need to rest. I just need this year to end already!