Currently….. {Get some cheese to go with my whine}

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I’m taking a page our of Cindy’s book… (blog?) and writing a “Currently” blog post because I feel the need to purge and write about a whole bunch of things, but I’m in kind of a bad space & I lack the time, concentration and words to dedicate an entire blog post to each issue.

I have a severe case of Endofyearitis which is not being helped by the immense pressure I’m under at the office. Worse still, everyone around me is in the same boat so there is a lot of snappy and generally douchey behavior going on. I’m wound up like a tightly coiled spring. My back hurts and I’m very very irritable.

And you know what irritates me? Even when I’m not irritable? Mouth breathers, coffee slurpers, people who hum/whistle and people who ignore you or don’t acknowledge your presence when you need to discuss something with them. Currently I’m dealing with two of the 4 I’ve mentioned and given my heightened state of irritation I’m afraid I’m going to blow!

It was #WorldAdoptionDay on Sunday and as part of the campaign, I shared this photo to the groups Face Book page & someone reported my photo is inappropriate!

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I get that there is a huge community, particularly in America, which is very anti-adoption because of the type of industry it is over there & the levels of coercion that go on in getting birth mom’s to surrender their baby’s, but really, flagging my image as inappropriate? I was also attacked on Twitter by an anti-adoption campaigner, very rudely I’d add, about how adoption is tantamount to child trafficking… er… ok then! And how children should remain within their family unit, even orphans, and that if they don’t have any family to take them in, then we have failed them. A very simplistic and rather idealistic view but anyway, I don’t have time to waste on people like that so I just blocked. Luckily Face Book decided that my image was in fact not inappropriate or offensive and so it remained up.

I’m tired, gatvol and frustrated at the moment. Nothing seems to be going to plan. My stomach is in a knot permanently and I feel on the verge of tears. We have no end of year holiday to look forward to, cancelled due to lack of funding. It’s the silly season, it’s Ava’s birthday and Christmas and then Hannah’s birthday.

Mostly I just want to sit down and have a good cry. Speaking of which, I have cried twice in the toilets at the office in the past two weeks, THAT’s the kind of pressure I’m under.

It kind of just feels like I have no where to turn. Walter is also under huge pressure and between our highly stressful jobs, two kids, three dogs, bonds and home etc etc, we’re like two ships passing in the night. Hamsters running at full speed on the wheel of life but it feels like we’re getting to no where.

Guys, I need a holiday. I need a time out. I need a mani and pedi. I need a grown up’s evening out. I need to rest. I just need this year to end already!

November 12, 2014
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25 Comments

  • Reply Desh

    Shame Sharon. You are definitely a very strong person and can handle anything. This storm will pass and you will have the best weather ever. Perhaps book away just for a weekend to relax and enjoy the family time. You have a beautiful family and just be calm.

    November 12, 2014 at 1:01 pm
  • Reply Immeasurable Love

    Ah, friend. I know……
    xxxxx

    November 12, 2014 at 1:03 pm
  • Reply Nisey

    I can think of a thousand platitudes starting with – this too shall pass… End of year stress is the worst, you’ve dealt with worse and I’m sure you’ll find a way through this episode too! In the meantime, have a glass of wine, put your feet up tonight and pretend its not happening! More is nog n dag and all that xxx

    November 12, 2014 at 1:16 pm
  • Reply Saskia

    Shame Sharon, this time of year is a b!tch and the holidays seem so far away! I also got slammed on twitter by some anti adoption troll. I, unfortunately, didnt let it lie and gave it to her both barrels. Then I blocked her ๐Ÿ™‚ Have a couple of glasses of wine tonight and take a deep breath, a break from work with your family, is as good as a holiday and still something to look forward to.

    November 12, 2014 at 1:24 pm
  • Reply Gaelyn Cokayne

    Ah no I can’t believe someone reported that picture! I did see a few very anti adoption posts floating around on Sunday, it blows my mind! What ever happened to differences of opinion being ok, because people remained respectful and open minded? I am sorry things are so tough for you at the moment, For what it’s worth, post race blues are a “thing” too, you’ve been ocused on that for so long and now that it’s over and you actually did it, you are just collapsing into yourself. It’s ok. Maybe give yourself a few days rest? Play with your girls and ridiculously cute pup and be kind to yourself. xxx

    November 12, 2014 at 1:41 pm
  • Reply cat@jugglingact

    Why has this year been so tough on so many of us! I also just need it over and done with. I do hope you get some rest and lots of love.

    And this anti adoption thing just stuns me – surely they do not live in any third world country and have no idea. They have also never had a yearning heart for a child.

    November 12, 2014 at 1:42 pm
  • Reply Cindy

    It totally sucks that you are felling like that but I totally get where you’re coming from! Do you get leave to look forward to at the end of the year?

    November 12, 2014 at 1:49 pm
    • Reply Sharon

      I do. I’m off from the 19th. We were hoping to go away but due to financial pressures, that has been cancelled. ๐Ÿ™

      November 12, 2014 at 2:36 pm
  • Reply belindamountain

    Also feeling gatvol! Yesterday I had a bumper bashing where the guy basically verbally attacked me and tried to solicit money out of me, claiming it was my fault. When I mentioned claiming from insurance and going about this in a rational way (and some of my friends turned up for moral support), he jumped in his car and sped away (dodgy!). Please can this year be over?! Not sure how to help you except to say that you are certainly not alone (and pass the cheese please;).

    November 12, 2014 at 2:03 pm
  • Reply reluctantmom

    And here I was looking at you envious that you are always so together, got your shit in a row, and seem to be sailing through life laughing, losing weight and basically looking f&cking gorgeous every time I see you.

    Funny how a peak behind the curtain can often be a rather alarming realisation.

    I am not happy that you are spinning out —– but it will settle (that is what I keep telling myself ….) …. and you still will be smoking as you go off to buy yourself a new well fitted swimming costume for Summer!!!

    xxx

    November 12, 2014 at 2:06 pm
  • Reply Michelle R

    Shame Sharon, I can so relate, just want this year to be over as well. Is it perhaps a possibility to chat to the HR Manager at work about the humming etc? I used to work with a perpetual cougher who drove me to the brink of madness every day, so I empathize. You re a strong person and “this too shall pass!” xx

    November 12, 2014 at 2:50 pm
  • Reply Jenny

    So funny, I was just thinking today that this end of year, every year, is so horrible that by the time you sit down to your Christmas lunch the last damn people you want to be socialising with are your colleagues! Strength – you are so not alone! And I usually hang out in Dec in Jozi and it’s really actually awesome. I always try book a holiday in Feb though so at least I have something to look forward to. If finances allow try that. Otherwise stay of FB during Dec cos it sucks seeing everyone on the beach ๐Ÿ˜‰

    November 12, 2014 at 2:51 pm
    • Reply Sharon

      We’re planning a trip around Easter time, that will have to suffice.
      But I am just so so so over it.
      We’ve had at least 2 to 3 Triple A game releases every week since the start of October with another two weeks of the same to go. I am just exhausted.

      November 12, 2014 at 2:54 pm
  • Reply Heather

    Hugs. If it makes you feel any better we had to cancel our holiday too and I was so looking forward to it.

    November 12, 2014 at 8:54 pm
  • Reply Louisa

    I feel your end of year pressure situation. Twice this week I’ve had a little workplace weep. And many, many tantrums! I am considering changing my job description on LinkedIn to professional nag and cracker of whips.

    November 13, 2014 at 6:19 pm
  • Reply paddatjiesema

    Karma…I was laughing at your humming predicament. Then today someone complained about the radio (that played TuksFM and was my saving grace at the office). With the radio off all I’m hearing is the humming person in front of me. It is just too much. Can’t think of anything else

    November 14, 2014 at 9:21 am
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