Disbelief!

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I’m 9dp5trf (9 days past a 5 day transfer)! That in itself is incredible, I’ve never lasted that long without bleeding! AF has always arrived between 5 – 7 days past transfer. But this cycle is different and I’m in utter disbelief.

I’ll let the photo’s do the talking (not the greatest quality as my camera is still in for repairs):

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I’ve been having the same results since 5dp5trf but because of the huge mistrust I have in home tests I’ve been retesting every day. I’m totally torn between doing an early beta and waiting till my scheduled test date on the 13th October when I’ll be 14dp5trf. My issue is that because of my high number of chemical pregnancies, I’m afraid to test early and get a low beta, then I’ll spend the next 48 hours frantically worrying whether the pregnancy is viable or not. I’d rather wait it out, as much as the waiting is killing me, and get a decent beta count when I do test at 14dp5trf. If I am, in fact, pregnant and the home tests aren’t wrong.

Right now it feels like I’m living in some kind of surreal dream world…………….

October 8, 2009
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37 Comments

  • Reply Gail

    Woo Hoo!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!! You are pregnant!!!!!! I am in tears here. Congrats my friend. This is SUCH great news. I would go for a beta today, but that’s just me…

    October 8, 2009 at 7:04 am
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    See, I told you that you shouldn’t be drinking mojitos! ๐Ÿ˜€ CONGRATS and I can’t wait until your beta day. I hope it’s an incredibly high number!

    October 8, 2009 at 7:09 am
  • Reply sassy

    SZweetie, I am always careful on this, but that IS the ‘faint pink line’ and I think you know what that peans. I am very, very excited for you, very, very hopeful, and will be keeping you in my thoughts!

    October 8, 2009 at 7:10 am
  • Reply Karin Britz

    This is your moments. Wow – Never doubt the power of prayers.

    October 8, 2009 at 7:23 am
  • Reply SassyCupcakes

    Those are some very pretty pictures. I have a very very good feeling about this. It sounds very smart to wait until the 13th, you don’t need to get freaked out by a number that’s not quite as high as you’d like it to be.

    October 8, 2009 at 7:27 am
  • Reply Sue

    Oh Sharon I definitely am so hopeful for you!!! If you are consistently getting that line then I am cautiously optimistic :-). Why don’t you maybe test at 12dp5dt which would be the same as testing 14dp3dt? I understand your hesitence though – I was also tempted to test early as so many do, but stuck it out to 14dp3dt. Please God please god please god let this be it!

    October 8, 2009 at 7:28 am
  • Reply K

    Wow.. wow, wow, wow! Having never walked in your shoes, I can’t imagine the hell of a chemical pregnancy and subsequent real fear of doubling beta numbers.. but as sassy says – that IS the ‘faint pink line’.. will be sending every ounce of strength, courage and positive vibes I have.. please g-d this is your time xxx

    October 8, 2009 at 7:29 am
  • Reply Invivo

    Please, please, please, please….waiting anxiously for your result!

    October 8, 2009 at 7:31 am
  • Reply Denise

    Your thoughts create your reality! I am pregnant, I am pregnant, I am pregnant…

    October 8, 2009 at 7:33 am
  • Reply Adi

    Wow…. please please please let the bloods confirm…

    October 8, 2009 at 7:39 am
  • Reply Dee

    I knew it!!! I swear I knew this was it! Shoo, I dont know if I could wait it out until the 13th but if it means getting a nice high beta then maybe you should.

    Oh and CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    October 8, 2009 at 8:13 am
  • Reply Tam

    You’re knocked up chicken!! Can’t wait to hear the results, please, please, please let them be good!!!!

    October 8, 2009 at 8:15 am
  • Reply Lea White

    Wow, great pics!!! I can tell you that I have been praying absolutely non-stop that this will be your moment. Counting down the days to the 13th of October with you!

    October 8, 2009 at 8:21 am
  • Reply Gwen

    So you’re out of the closet. How exciting, I hope you have superb numbers when you do go for your beta.

    October 8, 2009 at 8:29 am
  • Reply Robyn

    You are pregnant my friend! At long friggin last! Believe those sticks – I know they can lie, but they have never lied for me – every time I saw that faint second line, I was pregnant. Can’t wait to hear the beta! Sending you lots of love.

    October 8, 2009 at 8:33 am
  • Reply Dubai-Chrisle

    I am keeping you in my prayers, rooting hard for you from a far !!Both my pregnancies the pink line was very-very faint and they are now elven and thirteen.

    October 8, 2009 at 8:39 am
  • Reply Hela

    Oh man, I’m also saying please, please, please! I’ve been very careful to comment too much as we all know your history. My prayer is that this is viable and healthy and stays this way for 40 weeks. Soooo holding thumbs every day and thinking of you everyday. And I’d say, rather wait till test date. (or as close to test day as you can hold out)

    Seems the bleeding was implantation then? So exciting.

    October 8, 2009 at 8:49 am
  • Reply Sian

    Holy CRAP!!!!!! I’m Smiling from ear to ear! I would wait it out. But keep retesting.

    October 8, 2009 at 8:57 am
  • Reply Beth

    So happy for you! Pls pls pls let yr numbers be nice and high to give you peace of mind.
    xxx

    October 8, 2009 at 8:57 am
  • Reply Rach

    Wow congrats Shaz. Hope it’s a sticky one for you and you get great numbers.

    xx

    October 8, 2009 at 9:03 am
  • Reply Gen

    CONGRATS !!!!

    This is so exciting !!!

    October 8, 2009 at 9:05 am
  • Reply Abs

    Such a beautiful sight those two lines. Will be holding thumbs and toes for a great beta whenever you decide to go and test. I love the marker pen label to let you know what day it was done….you are SUCH A POAS ADDICT! ;0) xxx

    October 8, 2009 at 9:07 am
  • Reply Lesley

    OMG!!! What a beautiful sight! Crossing everything that this is what it looks like. So hoping this is it for your Sharon, that would really be the way things are supposed to be.

    October 8, 2009 at 9:15 am
  • Reply CeCe Garrett

    Crying and laughing and praying…

    Oh my GOSH! I am not just excited because I am right… pinky swear.

    Oh Sharon.. I am so happy.

    October 8, 2009 at 9:17 am
  • Reply Jenny

    Okay so my staff wanted to know why I screamed@!!!!! OMG Shaz is this it? Can I knit you booties???? holding, praying man. shit! awesome, awesome…!

    October 8, 2009 at 9:17 am
  • Reply Melanie

    I think your a strong, incredibale women. I vote that you wait, you have come this far, and i believe that you can do it.
    I am not ging to say Congratulations yet, but i will keep you in my prayers as i always do. I really think that this is it!!!! I just have a good feeling, and 90% of the time my feelings are right.
    Stay strong, thinking of you.
    Mel

    October 8, 2009 at 9:25 am
  • Reply Katherine

    YAY!!! So happy for you. I’m afraid there is NO WAY I’d be able to wait. 14d5dt is very late for a first beta, I’d go tomorrow if I were you. If you’ve already had positive HPT’s since 5dpt then IT IS going to be a great number. Oh wow another FET success!!!

    October 8, 2009 at 9:45 am
  • Reply Amanda

    Hi Sharon, Elize just told me that you got a BFP! I just popped in to congratulate you! I always knew you could do it ๐Ÿ™‚
    Will check in again to see the results of the blood test.

    October 8, 2009 at 9:56 am
  • Reply Tertia

    woooo hoooo!!!! you deserve my friend xx

    October 8, 2009 at 10:12 am
  • Reply Kirsty

    fan – f*cking tastic!!!!! I am sosososososososos happy!!!You see – I soon will be the only book club member without a bump!!! x-x

    October 8, 2009 at 11:03 am
  • Reply Cindy

    Looks to be getting darker, which is generally a good sign….now I’ll write out what I’ve been saying since I saw your pictures….”oh please let this be it, please let this be it, pleaseletthisbeit….”. Thoughts and prayers for a super sticky one for you, Sharon.

    October 8, 2009 at 11:31 am
  • Reply WiseGuy

    It is real! Congratulations!!!! Yay Yay Yay!

    Clapping for you!

    October 8, 2009 at 11:43 am
  • Reply Gillian

    So exciting! I’m waiting with baited breath for the beta! Sending you loads of sticky dust!

    October 8, 2009 at 12:12 pm
  • Reply SCY

    Pregnant! Pregnant! Preganant! ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

    xxxx

    October 8, 2009 at 1:25 pm
  • Reply Kristin

    What an absolutely beautiful sight! Congrats and prayers.

    October 8, 2009 at 1:32 pm
  • Reply Nikki

    Well I’ll be a monkey’s bloody uncle, and I’m not entirely sure if I’m able to swear here but effing, eff, eff… CONGRAT-U-EFFING-LATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so happy for you!!!!!!!!

    October 8, 2009 at 4:33 pm
  • Reply Susan Shepherd

    WOW WOW WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!

    I can’t believe it either!! Please keep us all posted!!!

    October 9, 2009 at 2:06 am
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