Wednesday. Before I got out of my car after arriving home from work, I was confronted by a distraught Ava. She wanted to know why I wasn’t at her charity tuck day, why I had gone to work instead of being at her school function like some of the other mom’s. The tears rolled down her cheeks while she explained to me how she had looked for me there all morning. Que the tears rolling down my cheeks.
As a woman and a mother, I am overwhelmed daily. The pressure. The pressure to be the perfect mother, perfect employee, perfect wife, perfect friend, perfect sister, perfect daughter, perfect woman. Striving to juggle all those hats, fulfill all those roles perfectly… it’s impossible, it’s a recipe for disaster. It’s a recipe for guilt and a sense of failure.
I struggle with this daily. When I’m at work but worrying about my children or when I’m screaming at my children while worrying about work. I fail. Daily. When I’m running out the office to fetch my children and thinking about work, when a friend is in need and I can’t be there like I feel I should and want to be. When I tried to quit smoking and failed again and let my children and my family down. When I gained 6kg’s earlier this year and let myself down. When I don’t achieve my monthly target at work and earn less, letting my company and my family down.
The overwhelming pressure to be everything to everyone and failing to achieve the impossible.
What the hell, it’s time to let it go!
I came across this article and the video attached really struck a chord with me:
Now if I only knew how to just breathe, relax and #LetGo but it’s easier said than done.