Today we treated Ava to another first… her very first theatre production. After reading the rave reviews from both Melinda and Nicki, we apprehensively decided to book tickets and see how Ava coped, having to sit still, in the dark and watch a show for just short of an hour. We headed off to Monte Casino feeling rather anxious about what could potentially lay ahead.
We needn’t have worried. Aside from being fidgety and irritated and trying to escape for the 15 minutes that we were in our seats and waiting for the show to start, Ava sat glued to my lap, open-mouthed and staring at the stage for the entire 50 odd minute production. She was completely taken with the Lion and the Rhino and kept turning to me and exclaiming loudly: “Lion dancing” or “Rhino singing” through out the show.
I felt slightly ridiculous for about the first 20 minutes of the show. I had that SAME reaction I have each time I experience something special with our miracle child. I started to cry. As the music & singing started, so did the great big crocodile tears that slid down my cheeks.
I really don’t know how to explain it, or why, 2 years after Ava’s birth, I’m still completely disbelieving that we’ve actually made it. That after such a long and hard struggle we are in fact parents, we have a child and I am a mother. But I sat there in the dark theater, with Ava’s warm body pressed against me and I couldn’t stop looking at her in wonder, listening to the sounds of all the other small children in the theater, with their mom’s and dad’s and thinking to myself: I can’t believe I am here. I can’t believe I’m so privileged to get to experience this, I never thought I’d get to do things like this in my life. And then of course feeling really ridiculous and hoping that no one had noticed me surreptitiously wiping away my tears.
Ava was an angel for the entire show and she was most in her element when at the end of the show, the house lights came up, we were all asked to stand and dance to the last song as characters from the show walked through and danced in the isles. She could not believe it when the Rhino came and stood right next to her and then had a little dance with her.
She also thoroughly enjoyed the rest of the Monte Casino outing, we saw Father “Mickmus” and two of his elves, we saw men walking with giant balloons, which Ava managed to convince *read tantrum* me to buy her an oversized Minnie Mouse balloon that cost and arm and a leg and is about 3 times her size.
It was a really special day and a day where I am once again reminded not just how lucky I am to have the privileged of experiencing motherhood but also how lucky I am to know what a privilege it is to be a mother!