You guys, I’ve been holding out on you… well some of you. Those of you who don’t follow me on Twitter… Won’t know.

See, I have this secret… well it’s not really a secret but it kind of is because… it’s a dirty little secret…. it’s so very un-PC and something I’m so very ashamed of… that I rarely ever mention it online.

I am a smoker!




Mrs Banting #fatgirlslim #fatgirlfit

I smoke.

Or rather… I smoked!

I hated it. No I lie, I freaking LOVED it, but I knew it was so very very bad for me and I knew I had to give it up. And I hated how it took time away from my children (because I don’t smoke around them and only outside) and I hated how it made me feel like a shitty mother, and I hated how it made me feel self conscious to kiss my husband because he’s a non smoker and I hated how it made me smell and I hated how much money it cost and I hated how it was aging my skin, and I hated how it dominated every choice I made in my life (where to eat out/do they have a smoking section? Where to go on holiday/how many smoke breaks will I need along the way) I hated it.

But OMG… I LOVED it!

Then my #fatgirlslim journey happened and something inside me shifted. I’ve become like all healthy and stuff. Being conscious of my fitness and my diet and what I eat had a knock on effect and more and more I started thinking about quitting the ciggies.

But I knew it would be hard and I was very very scared.

Motivation came from an unlikely source, my friend, Jenny, gave me a bit of a pep talk and something she said stuck. We’d gone there for lunch about a month ago and when I whipped out my fags, she kind of did her famous eye roll at me (and if you know Jenny, you’ll know exactly what I’m referring to) and she asked me why the hell I hadn’t kicked the habit yet? Her words were something along the lines of her not knowing a more strong, determined, willful person and that if anyone could do anything they set their minds to, it was me and she just simply couldn’t understand how come I hadn’t don’t it already.

For some reason, what she said stayed with me. It had an impact on me. Far greater than all the whining, nagging and moaning I’ve faced about my smoking over the years, from my husband, my family, my mom especially.

And I kept mulling over what she said. Over and over it played in my mind. Then about two weeks ago, I had a dream. It was more of a nightmare really, but for the life of me, I have no recollection what it was about except that it involved my children, my health and my smoking. And that was it.

I woke up that very day and I simply quit!

It’s been two week’s today you guys! Two week’s!

This past year had been an incredible journey to improved health and fitness and it has taught me so much about who I am, what I’m capable of and what my limits are.

And now, I can add non smoker to that list to!

Goooo me!


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  • Reply Wenchy

    Well done babe!!! That is incredible!

    May 19, 2015 at 9:11 am
  • Reply debbie

    Congratulations !!! Its a very hard habit to break – I am 4 years down the line!! Just remember the old saying – you are a puff away from a pack a day – I have quit before and thought I could have one when I had a drink – went straight back to square one…..Your running will also improve as your lungs get stronger – its all on the up for you – so VERY WELL DONE!!!

    May 19, 2015 at 9:13 am
  • Reply Tash

    Well done!!! I quit cold turkey almost 11 years ago and I haven’t missed it for a single day!!! Such an amazing achievement! Keep going strong!

    May 19, 2015 at 9:17 am
  • Reply ailsaloudon

    Congrats. I know how hard it is – gave up in 2000 after smoking since the age of 14 (was 31years of mostly on and rarely off smoking). The only way is put them down and never pick them up again. But never hold a fag for anyone because without even thinking, it will go in your mouth! 🙂

    May 19, 2015 at 9:32 am
  • Reply Cindy

    I had no idea that you smoked – not even an inkling. Also, I totally agree with Jenny – if anyone can do it, it’s you! You go girl!

    May 19, 2015 at 9:45 am
  • Reply Jenny

    Ha ha I am glad my famous eye roll worked! I was a smoker too and know exactly what you mean about hating it and loving it – and I am always one personal disaster away from a pack a day! Any excuse to light up again and yet I am so very glad my life is not ruled by it anymore either. And really really you are the strongest person I know – your mental ability to keep to your goals is amazing so now that your physical craving is over you know you will never go back because of that will of steel. Well done!

    May 19, 2015 at 10:45 am
    • Reply Sharon

      It certainly did Jen!

      May 19, 2015 at 10:53 am
  • Reply Sula

    Yesterday marked 4 months since quitting. I am so grateful to have got this far this time. Congratulations

    May 19, 2015 at 11:00 am
  • Reply Nics

    Well done! My husband gave up smoking around 20 years ago – cold turkey, just like that. He said it was the only way that was going to work for him. And it did.

    May 19, 2015 at 12:36 pm
  • Reply Mrs FF

    Well done!!! A great achievement

    May 19, 2015 at 9:46 pm
  • Reply Megan

    Well done for quitting!

    May 20, 2015 at 7:41 am
  • Reply Stacey Vee (@MissStaceyVee)

    Holy flippen smokes (ahem)

    May 20, 2015 at 12:22 pm
  • Reply Heather

    Well done Sharon!

    May 20, 2015 at 3:29 pm
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