Its Funny How Life Continues…….

While the world comes crashing down around my ears. 🙁

I may seem like I’m being mellow dramatic, but right now I feel like an outsider looking in. Watching the world go by, I feel like I’m trapped in some kind of invisible bubble and it doesn’t matter what I do or how I try to escape, its simply impossible to do so.

The odds stack more and more against me while against all odds others are receiving the fantastic news of the miracle pregnancies.

Perhaps its time to accept that this miracle is just not meant for me.


  • stacey

    February 4, 2009 at 8:14 am

    It always seems crazy to me too that life just goes on all around me when I feel I’m at the end of my rope. I have no idea why we’re on this path, Shaz. I know it’s AWFUL, and even the “good days” aren’t all that great in this situation.
    I so wish we could hang out in real life!


  • Lea White

    February 4, 2009 at 8:36 am

    Oh Sharon, I’m so sorry. I do know what you mean, I remember a time for us too when it felt like life for us came to a complete standstill and yet, when I looked around people were carrying on as always. I actually found it a bit frustrating.

    Sharon, I wish there was anything I could say that would make you feel better, or I wish I was somehow able to see the end-result of a situation. All I can offer is hugs,prayers and thoughts.

  • Maritza

    February 4, 2009 at 8:48 am

    Try not to push yourself too hard at the moment. Sometimes when things are really bad we have to live from one breath to the other. Nothing more.

    I think different voices console us during different phases of our journey. Not sure if you’ve visited before? Probably. But it might speak to you at the moment.

    I’m not going to tell you to keep on hoping, cause you probably are too fed up with people telling you that. I do however still have hope for you.

    Thinking of you.



  • Abbey

    February 4, 2009 at 9:33 am

    Sharon, I totally get what you are saying about the odds stacking up against you and the miracle BFP’s just rolling in from everywhere. Some guy at work told me yesterday that his wife is 3 weeks pregnant and if I want to get pregnant I must just go on holiday…all I could think of was ‘thanks for the useless ‘Assvice’ and how can you tell people so soon when there is such a high rate of miscarraige in the first trimester?’….it was like a kick in the stomach. I’ve turned into such a negative person. I thought exactly the same thing as you…the world does not care that everything is falling apart around me. My SIL is having her C section this afternoon too. If my first chemical had turned out to be viable we would have been due around the same time….so it’s going to be hard for me. But as you say…the world keeps turning with or without us. If it’s any consolation I’m standing with you in that bubble, holding your hand until we get out.

  • charne

    February 4, 2009 at 11:06 am

    i get what you saying, and understand how you feeling… but just remember been a mom is your desire and it is meant for you, i just wish i could tell you when and wish this hurt and pain could go away.

    thinking of u

  • Elize

    February 4, 2009 at 11:56 am

    Hang in there hon. We’re praying for you. I know it seems like an empty gesture at the moment. I’d love to swoop in and remove the pain and incertainty. I’d love to hug you until you stop crying. I’d love to have the exact words to tell you something that will make you feel all better. But I can’t.

  • Adel

    February 4, 2009 at 12:29 pm

    Ai Shaz,

    I so totally understand!!! I know there is not much I can say to make it better, except that we are here for you and sending you lots of hugs!!!

    Good luck my friend.

  • Tam

    February 4, 2009 at 2:36 pm

    I so hear you sweetie. I’m sorry that this is so shit, it’s really not fair at all, it seems like all of us are in the same damn boat and not one of us can do a thing about it.

    Hugs xxxx

  • monica lemoine

    February 4, 2009 at 4:41 pm

    🙁 I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. It simply isn’t fair or logical. It makes no sense to me why some people are “in” that particular bubble and others are “out.” I wish I was one of those people who always knew the exact right thing to say, but I’m not. Hang in there and stay strong. There, that sounded okay, I guess.

  • Amanda

    February 4, 2009 at 4:58 pm

    Sharon, I’ve been there, feeling that I’m standing still and everyone is moving on with their lives and I might not even have a life to plan for in the future. But it does get better, you do move on, I don’t know how, but it happens. I have been reading your blog since it started and I’ve met you, I have seen how strong you can be, right now you don’t have to be anything, just be kind to yourself.

  • Sweepea

    February 4, 2009 at 6:30 pm

    Hi Sharon

    I totally understand. When I had my m/c and was taking the plane back home, I also felt like I was an onlooker. I felt like screaming “how can you all go on like normal when I have just lost my long awaited child”! You are stronger than you think and I am thinking of you. Doesnt it get tiring sometimes being strong?


  • Kirsty

    February 4, 2009 at 8:08 pm

    I know that words are probably no comfort right now, so I’ll just say that I’m sorry and that I hope the sun will soon be shining for you again! ( And I mean that in more ways than one! Sheez – is this rain ever going to stop?) x

  • Yvonne

    February 4, 2009 at 8:14 pm

    Shaz, I’m so sorry. I wish I could say something that would magically make everything better. Obviously I can’t.
    There are options – you know that, and only you will know when it’s time to start addressing those options. It may sound trite but I strongly believe that this is going to happen for you – somewhere out there is an angel-baby just waiting for the perfect way in which to join your family.
    Somehow, someway it will happen for you.


I LOVE comments, leave yours here:

error: Content is protected !!
%d bloggers like this: