Something is happening in my life, I’m not really sure what, but I’ve been feeling somewhat anxious over the last few week’s, anxious in a way I have felt since starting on my AD’s almost a year ago. I have this gnawing sensation in the pit of my stomach. I feel like something big is about to happen but I just don’t know what. Call it intuition, I don’t really know how to explain it, but something is up. I’m receiving messages everywhere of something I need to do, something I’ve been putting off doing, something of a spiritual nature and I’ve been receiving confirmation of this repeatedly in different ways and forms.
I know that that paragraph must sound rather cryptic, but until I know what is up, or what is happening with me, I really don’t know how else to describe how I’ve been feeling.
Since starting AD’s last year, my GAD (general anxiety disorder) has been far more under control and since then I’ve been sleeping better than I have in many many years, but as the anxiety has started creeping back into everyday life for me over the last few week’s, I’ve started experiencing sleep disturbances again. Waking early and my sleep is peppered with the most bizarre and unexplainable dreams.
Last week I had a dream that I’ve been unable to forget. It disturbed me and yet seems to make no sense. I dreamt I was standing under a HUGE fig tree that was laden with fruit. I started picking the figs and breaking them open to eat them. Every single fruit I opened was filled with maggots and I landed up throwing fig after fig down on the ground in disgust at the maggots.
The Fig and its many seeds represent the feminine and fertility. They also represent prosperity. Dreaming of a basket of figs means the woman is a goddess or mother of many children. In Dreams, the symbology of the fig differs from level to level. Dreaming of a fig tree, often symblizes the need to cover up something, as Adam and Eve covered themselves with fig leaves. Figs are not common in dreams, and thus should be noted in dream journals.
After realising that all the figs were rotting with maggots, I looked up into the tree and higher up, amongst the highest branches I noted that instead of figs growing from the tree, there were giant white pumpkins. I was trying to work out how I was going to safely pluck the pumpkins from the tree without having to climb so high.
All I will say is that I’m tired, roll on the end of the year and the holidays because my mind and my heart need a rest. If you believe in dream interpretation, which I’m not sure I do, it’s interesting that dreams about both figs and pumpkins relate to fertility, motherhood and changes within ones life. As these are all the topics I’m currently struggling with.