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Even Though I’m A Half Marathon Runner, I’d Joined Run/Walk For Life as a Stage 1 Runner, Here’s Why:

I joined Run/Walk For Life a couple of months ago, but I won’t lie, I’ve been a total slacker since joining! 

With the girls changing schools at the beginning of this year and us now smack bang in the middle of winter, our routines have had to change completely. Where previously, I could enjoy a 5km run between 6 & 7am, that is no longer possible. If I want to continue on with my early morning runs,  have to run at 5am and in Jozi, in the middle of winter, that not only means that it’s FREEZING cold, it’s also pitch dark and I’m scared!

But first….. my demise….

About a year or so ago, I struggled to recover from Plantar Fascitis. It took more than 8 months and a long period of rest to recover and be able to exercise without pain. It also destroyed my motivation, my routine, my fitness and my strength.

I’ve been trying to fight my way back ever since and it’s really not been easy. Everything has suffered. I am not nearly as fit as I was, my weight has sky rocketed, I’m not nearly as strong as I used to be and I’ve basically been struggling with my motivation. Because it’s not fun to exercise when every moment is pure torture.

And so I just stopped.

I stopped trying. I stopped caring. And I slid down a slippery slope back to obesity. And I’ve felt like the biggest fraud and the biggest phoney. I still get requests for magazine and print interviews following my banting journey and given where I’m at now, I just can’t do it. I am so angry with myself and so damn ashamed. But I am trying to learn to accept that my weight will be a life long struggle for me. 

Sure, I”m no where near the  118kg’s I was 3 years ago, but it’s a slippery slope. And I’m terrified of going back there. 

Once a fat girl, always a fat girl.

I’m literally teetering on the brink everyday of coming completely undone and it terrifies the hell out of me. I promised myself I would never go back. And yet here I am, screaming in fear as I ride the roller coaster of my weight control. 

So after lots of thought and planning I joined Run/Walk For Life.

But learning to train in the evenings is hard yoh! Especially when I’m as unfit as I currently am. Granted, it’s not unfit like I was 4 years ago, but still now, a 5km run takes me a good 50 minutes with lots of run/walk intervals and I hate every minute of it. And I really hate running after work, I’m much more an early bird. There’s other stuff I’d rather be doing after work, like drinking wine! 

So I joined RWFL

And even though I’m a multiple half marathon runner, I’ve decided to go right back to the beginning. I’m running track as a stage 1 runner currently, in the hope that I can rebuild and eventually get back to where I was. Stage 1 running is fun, but really hard on my ego, its basically running or walking as fast as you can, around a track as many times as you can for 20 odd minutes. On Tuesday, I managed a poultry 4 times around the track, or a whopping 1.6km.  

But…..

I enjoyed it. I didn’t hate every moment. I didn’t feel defeated by it and I feel like, as apposed to the first time around, where I started off just pounding the pavement, I’m actually learning along the way. How to pace myself, how to monitor my heart rate and hopefully in the long run (excuse the pun) how to be a better overall runner. 

I’ve set myself a goal, for November, and hopefully along with my other round girl friend, I can achieve it.

I’ve done it before, I CAN do it again! 

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12 Comments

  • Reply hilaryjgreen

    And we totally will do this!!!

    June 22, 2017 at 7:23 am
  • Hilary Green
    Reply Hilary Green

    We start from scratch and we will get there again!

    June 22, 2017 at 7:24 am
  • Terrilee Ferreira
    Reply Terrilee Ferreira

    I stopped running cause I’m always running after my daughter 🙂 but I to miss it and want to start again

    June 22, 2017 at 10:12 am
  • Reply Sam

    You will do it!

    June 22, 2017 at 12:07 pm
  • Reply Mom Of Two Little Girls

    I keep wanting to join up to Park Run, but I have 0 confidence in any sport at all. Well done you for being motivated enough to start. I think that’s so important. Can’t wait for the updates on how you get on.

    June 22, 2017 at 3:25 pm
    • Reply Sharon

      You should totally do it. Park Run’s are so chilled, loads of people simply walk them!

      June 22, 2017 at 3:44 pm
  • Reply Cheryl

    I have been inspired by your journey from the beginning and i also joined RWFL. But life happens and soon found myself missing session and have completely stopped going. Needless to say i am so so dissapointed in myself for not perservering and not making time for myself because its always family first. Thank you for this post i needed to read this to get back on track with diet and exercise and just making myself a priority 3 times a week for just an hour! Good luck you WILL make it back again……and so will I.

    June 22, 2017 at 7:31 pm
  • Reply Marts

    You might think this strange, but you inspired me to join RWFL in Nov last year. I started off on 50min for 5k and thought I would always only be a walker. I’m now running more and I’m down to 35min for 5k and regularly do 10+k. Being able to run is the best feeling I’ve had in years. Keep posting about your progress please. It keeps me motivated.

    June 22, 2017 at 8:15 pm
  • Reply jenty

    You’ll do it. The field will definitely be fantastic to teach you pacing and to listen to your body. We’ll be there cheering you on.

    June 23, 2017 at 6:00 am
  • Bronwynne Wiehl
    Reply Bronwynne Wiehl

    Sometimes a reboot is a good thing! Looking forward to running together soon!

    June 23, 2017 at 6:07 am
  • Rene de Villiers
    Reply Rene de Villiers

    I am so proud of you! Brave to take a few steps back and motivated enough to take a whole lot more steps forward. Thank you for sharing your story♡

    June 23, 2017 at 7:58 am
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