Soaking Up Some Sun

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Well trying to look on the bright side anyway. To soak up some sun so to speak.  I’ve been feeling really down in the dumps over the past few days and then on the way to work this morning I heard this song on the radio:

The words: “Its not having what you want Its wanting what you’ve got” really struck a chord with me. They reminded me of a lesson I learned along time ago. That feeling down in the dumps and being dissatisfied had more to do with my attitude than with my circumstances and that despite what fate (hope you little bitch) may throw at me, I could cope and be happy in spite of all of it. And that’s ultimately what I choose.

I choose to live a happy life in spite of my infertility so although I’m still feeling very sensitive today and honestly quite terrified for my upcoming IVF I’m doing much better and trying to focus on the positive.

The positive is that I stood on the scale yesterday and in spite of a weekend consisting mostly of comfort food, I managed to loose 1.4kg’s in the past week. The positive is that, although it means diddly squat, we got fertilization which does mean that, unlike a large number of my IF friends, W and I can still continue to try naturally and with a hope of success in between IVF’s so all is not lost.

But please don’t rah rah me, I’m still very sensitive and need loads of TLC and to be handled with kid gloves at the moment.

Thanks to everyone for your support over the last few days!

February 2, 2009
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8 Comments

  • Reply Amanda

    The words of that that song is so true. I am glad you’re feeling better, albeit still a bit raw. I’m hoping and praying that your IVF goes really well, you both desreve so much happiness. Lots and lots of (((((hugs)))))) and lots and lots of love.

    February 2, 2009 at 3:09 pm
  • Reply Abbey

    Thanks for sharing Sharon. My rah rah pom poms are tied up and gagged so no need to fear I’ll bring them out. Enough said for now I think ;0)

    Big Hugs
    Abbey

    February 2, 2009 at 3:11 pm
  • Reply Michelle

    Oh my friend I totally get how you are feeling but I am glad to hear that you are trying to soak up some sun. Big hugs.

    February 2, 2009 at 3:45 pm
  • Reply Stacey

    Soaking up some sun sounds sooo good to me right now.

    You know why I like reading this blog so much? Because you’re real. You write about anger, disappointment, frustrations, joy, hope (even though she’s our “frenemy”), and everything else that we face with IF. Sometimes it’s good to talk about just how awful and unfair it all is.
    Thanks for keeping it real. Sending a hug halfway across the world!

    February 2, 2009 at 7:40 pm
  • Reply Yvonne

    Thinking of you, and sending big warm hugs your way!!!

    February 2, 2009 at 9:22 pm
  • Reply Lea White

    I love that song!!! It is so true!

    The only thing I am able to offer is hugs and as always my prayers and thoughts.

    February 2, 2009 at 10:23 pm
  • Reply skrambled

    Lots of HUGS and LOVE!

    February 3, 2009 at 1:01 pm
  • Reply samcy

    (((((((HUGS))))))))

    February 3, 2009 at 2:06 pm
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