Loveness left us yesterday.
I am still incapable of talking about it without the tears flowing.
The reality is that she will get better medical care back in Zimbabwe than she will get here in South Africa. So she has quit her job and is returning to Zimbabwe.
She came to collect her things from our house yesterday and I was shocked when I saw her. The deterioration in her health over this past week is noticeable. She looks gaunt, she has lost so much weight her legs look like sticks and you can see from the dullness in her eyes that she is in terrible pain. I am terrified she has cancer.
She has been misdiagnosed so many times locally, I can only hope that the hospital in Zim can give her a proper diagnosis and proper treatment. I am scared. I think she is scared to but was putting on a brave face when she came to say goodbye and collect her things, especially when she saw me crying. Hearing her telling Ava how much she loves her nearly broke me yesterday.
So we’ve given her some money and she’s left us.
I had a feeling it was going to come to this. So last week I started interviewing potential replacements through Help At Home. Ruth as been fantastic and out of all the candidates she recommended I interviewed two. I liked both of them. And we made an offer to one of them which was accepted.
Our new nanny was supposed to start today… she never arrived!
We have now made a new offer to the other candidate. She will start tomorrow… hopefully.
I never imagined our family without Loveness. And its never been more apparent than it is right now, just how much we rely on her, just how much she is apart of our family, just how big a role she played in making our family work.
I am beyond devastated.