Trigger… Here We Go…

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Ok, had my CD13 scan today and it appears that my right ovary must have heard me call it lazy yesterday when it only grew my follicle by 2mm in a two day period, because today my follicle had shot up by 4mm and was measuring 20mm. Lining all good, after a couple of pricks (thanks lovely veins) I had my E2 bloods done and I’m ready to trigger at 7pm this evening. Thaw will be on Sunday, Intralipds, God willing on Monday and transfer, again God willing, on Tuesday.

It suddenly hit me this am, that there is a possibility that this cycle may actually not go anywhere. That after the thaw on Sunday, when I arrive for my Intralipids on Monday, they may actually turn me away because my embryo’s may have degenerated. Its quite a sobering thought. Its a reminder (again) of how difficult the IVF path is, of how many pass/fail points we have to go through. I’ve had one cancelled IVF cycle, cancelled after ER, and it was a crushing blow, I suspect that having a FET cancelled right before transfer will be just as devastating.

I wish I could go back to the early days of this journey, back to the more basic, less high tec rounds of treatment. Back to the days when the emotional, financial and physical investment in an attempt wasn’t so completely overwhelming but I guess there’s no going back is there? When I was waiting for my scan this am, there was a couple in the waiting room with me, so full of excitement and anticipation of  their first IVF.  She kept saying over and over again to her hubbie how it was so cool that they’d know in about 3 weeks time that they were pregnant, I think she caught my smiling at her and at the innocence of her statement and so she asked me if I was also there for IVF. So I said yes, I didn’t want to elaborate because I didn’t want to freak her out. She then asked me if I’d had IVF before to which I said yes again. So then she asked if I was trying for baby no. 2 and I had to explain that no, after 4 fresh IVF’s, I was still in pursuit of baby no.1. The look of utter horror on her face when she turned to her husband and told him that it was stories like mine that terrified her. What would they do if they didn’t have success on IVF no. 1?

Keep trying I guess, what else are we to do?

September 24, 2009
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9 Comments

  • Reply Sian

    Well I’ll be hoping that those embies thaw and grow! I had the same experience when I had ET on our last IVF. Everyone was on IVF number one and here we come with our number for. I do believe that 5 or 6 will be my magic number though. 🙂

    September 24, 2009 at 11:03 am
  • Reply Lea White

    I’m praying that you are right on track and that all will go according to plan!!!

    September 24, 2009 at 12:02 pm
  • Reply Invivo

    *sigh* I was also one of those who thought that IVF#1 would do the trick. Actually quite a painful little scenario to witness. But then again, some people do get BFP on IVF#1…really, they do…it’s not just urban legend…

    Anyhow, I’m waiting anxiously to hear the thaw result. Please, please, please, please….

    Good luck!

    September 24, 2009 at 4:09 pm
  • Reply Kristin

    Hoping and praying that the thaw goes perfectly and we can celebrate with you soon.

    September 24, 2009 at 5:18 pm
  • Reply Hannah

    Good luck with this cycle. I just did my first IVF cycle, embryo transfer this week so I’m in the 2WW. I hope all goes well.

    *ICLW*

    September 24, 2009 at 5:21 pm
  • Reply Lisa RM

    Good luck, and as for the other couple- they need to face the truth some time.

    September 24, 2009 at 6:09 pm
  • Reply SCY

    Shame, I hope that the couple you met don’t have their bubble popped cos as we well know it hurts like fricking hell!

    Your babies will thaw, they will grow and you will get through a 2ww. Then we’ll celebrate. (And yes that was a proper rainbow fart 🙂 )

    xxx

    September 24, 2009 at 7:11 pm
  • Reply Rose's Daughter

    Good luck to you with this FET!

    ICLW

    September 25, 2009 at 5:05 am
  • Reply Melanie

    Good Luck with this cycle. Hope everthing goes well.
    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

    September 25, 2009 at 8:22 am
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