This time last year I wrote this: Now The Torture Begins.
Its hard to believe that a year has past since that fateful FET, my 5th IVF treatment. I feel so detached from it all when I read the posts from September and October 2009. The apprehension over the FET, the emotional torture of the 2ww, the excitement over our BFP and then the crushing devastation of my subsequent miscarriage and my confused emotions there after.
Its hard for me to explain, but when I read those posts, its like it happened to someone else, I have no emotion over it, not anger, sadness, anxiety, nothing. I read those posts and I’m so detached its as if it happened to someone else.
But its also a reminder of just how fast life can change. I had my embryo transfer on the 29th September 2009 and by the 29th of December, a mere 3 months later, I had a two week old baby.
And that is what is so magical and special about adoption, in the blink of an eye, my fortunes changed, my heart was healed and life as I knew it changed forever!
For those of you still faithfully reading a year on and to those of you who still take the time to comment and offer support a year on – Thank you!