This post has no title… mostly because… I really do not know what to call it. I can’t describe what I’m feeling…….. I’m so grateful and so excited and so afraid and so overwhelmed and so stressed and so happy and so much more than that… there just aren’t any words to explain what I’m feeling.

So I’ll just share a bit about what has transpired in the last 8 hours – this morning my SW called. When I saw her number come up on my phone I wanted to cry. I knew she was either going to give us good news or bad news.

It was good news…… its the most amazing news…… for so many years my heart has yearned for a moment like this……. after so many years we are SO CLOSE! The BM has chosen us! We are flying to Cape Town this weekend to meet her. I’m so afraid! I’m so afraid she’s not going to like us, or something will go wrong. I just know I’m going to cry and I hope she won’t be put off by that!

Today for the first time in years of heartache and unbearable disappointment, I allowed myself to dream a little dream…… and then I acted on it. I went to Woolies, straight into the baby section to buy something for our baby! Only problem is, I’ve spent so many years protecting my heart from hurt that now I feel completely inadequate, I don’t have a clue where to start. After literally standing there scratching my head for half an hour, all I bought was a 3 pack of sleeveless body vests, a 3 pack of short sleeved body vests and a little hat and booties to wear in the maternity ward.


To every single one of you who has cheered us and prayed for us along the way, a heartfelt thank you. Please continue to pray that all continues to go as smoothly and that this will be the blessing we have waited to very long for!

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  • Reply charne

    did i mention how HAPPY i am for you!!!!!

    i am in awe!

    We serve a faithful God


    December 7, 2009 at 3:52 pm
  • Reply Abs

    I’m cheering and praying for you guys Sharon!! xxx

    December 7, 2009 at 4:02 pm
  • Reply Julia

    Thank you Lord.
    I read this and have a lump in my throat. I don’t know what to say except that I am in awe. I will continue to pray that all goes smoothly from here on.

    December 7, 2009 at 4:17 pm
  • Reply bratty

    Your heart will shine thru and I am 100% sure the BM will love you…A good heart is hard to hide

    December 7, 2009 at 4:20 pm
  • Reply Sue

    🙂 🙂 🙂 WOW that’s awesome! I pray that all goes well and that you and BM hit it off right from the start. When is she due? Do you know the gender? Looking forward to more updates!!

    December 7, 2009 at 6:05 pm
  • Reply sophie

    What a wonderful news Sharon!!
    I am sure the BM will love you.
    All the best!!

    P.S cute little outfit you choose.

    December 7, 2009 at 6:09 pm
  • Reply Zeu

    OMW!! This is profound! So so happy to hear that you are one step closer to realising your dream :D.

    Such wonderful heart warming news, holding thumbs and praying that all goes well this weekend!

    December 7, 2009 at 6:17 pm
  • Reply Gwen

    I’m so thrilled. You’ll be shopping for your little one for many years to come, no need to go overboard just yet 😉

    December 7, 2009 at 7:06 pm
  • Reply Mrs See

    What wonderful news. I have caught up on about two weeks of blog now and am sitting here with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. I am so thrilled for you.

    December 7, 2009 at 7:21 pm
  • Reply Lea White

    Oh Wow, I’m so so happy for you. As always Sharon you are in my prayers and in my thoughts! I bet the wonderful amazing person you are will shine right through. And the little clothes you chose – they are just fine :-).

    December 7, 2009 at 7:33 pm
  • Reply Mash

    Oh good grief shivers running up and down the spine… erm, can I be so presumptious as to ask – when is the, no I mean YOUR, baby due??? I didn’t know that adoptive parents had to meet with the birth mother, how terrifying. So listen – if you are keen and needing to pass time, let’s get together while you are in CT. This is one baby I am feeling so happy about, I want to celebrate with you! I’m sure the other CT girls will be keen too!

    December 7, 2009 at 7:37 pm
  • Reply Sian

    Its a miracle! So happy for you!!

    December 7, 2009 at 7:42 pm
  • Reply jan

    omg! im crying my eyes out!! im so so happy!! and that what should I buy feeling is completely normal!!Grab your darling mom and go shopping in CT!!yay yay yay!!!

    December 7, 2009 at 7:51 pm
  • Reply Kait

    CONGRATULATIONS! That is awesome! I really don’t know what else to say. I hope everything goes well at the meeting!

    December 7, 2009 at 8:13 pm
  • Reply Adi

    Oh my goodness! This is crazy! 🙂 In the best way possible :)!!! Gosh, don’t really know what to say but… wow, I hope that you have a babe in your arms in no time, who cares what you need to buy or take care of: stuff will come as they are needed. Just make sure you have nappies and wet wipes and formula. And you and your hubby and animals. That makes a new family. The rest is optional.

    PS: And I hope you enjoy using that family parking soon… and understand why it is needed, no matter how insensitive it seems!… lol.

    PPS: And bless, bless, bless both the BM and SW for finding their path to you.

    December 7, 2009 at 8:33 pm
  • Reply Amy

    I am so, so very happy for you! I can’t wait to hear how this unfolds! Congratulations, dear!!!

    December 7, 2009 at 8:46 pm
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    OMG!!!! Yay!!! How could the BM not like you??? 🙂

    December 7, 2009 at 9:18 pm
  • Reply Katherine

    Oh my goodness, that is just the most amazing news ever!!! Let me know if you need ideas of what you need, other than a p@#$ load of stuff in a very short time. You’re going to be a mommy, isn’t God just incredible.

    December 7, 2009 at 9:26 pm
  • Reply Amy

    That is so exciting! I will be praying as hard as I can for a happy outcome!

    December 7, 2009 at 9:38 pm
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    December 7, 2009 at 9:39 pm
  • Reply Quiet Dreams

    So happy for you.
    I guess the social worker was right; the profile you prepared on short notice WAS perfect.

    December 7, 2009 at 9:58 pm
  • Reply Rach


    I want to say more but I can’t, so will leave it at congratulations.

    December 8, 2009 at 12:30 am
  • Reply Cindy

    I am trying to close my mouth…it seems my jaw has permanently dropped. So excited about this for you!

    December 8, 2009 at 12:56 am
  • Reply Lilla

    Congratulations, soo happy for you 🙂

    December 8, 2009 at 4:47 am
  • Reply Kristin

    OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG…I am so freaking excited for you! Wooohooooo!

    December 8, 2009 at 4:58 am
  • Reply Robyn


    You have waited so long and have been so strong it had to happen eventually. You give me hope my friend. This is the perfect time of year for you to be celebrating a miracle. If I wasn’t in a 2ww I would be drinking copious amounts of wine for you! Sending you all my love. Good luck for this weekend. It will go well – Cant wait to hear from you on Monday.

    December 8, 2009 at 6:36 am
  • Reply CalT

    🙂 🙂 🙂

    So get where you’re coming from about feeling inadequate. When we were told about Josh and I went to the shops I felt like everyone was staring at me and thinking that I shouldn’t be in the baby section. Also had NO clue where to start. I knew NOTHING. Didn’t even know how to change a nappy. But you will be great Shaz. You’re a natural mom – it shines through in all that you do.

    December 8, 2009 at 7:13 am
  • Reply Chopper1

    Ohmigosh… my eyeballs are leaking all over the place! I don’t think I could be any happier for you!! Good luck!! xxxxx

    December 8, 2009 at 7:20 am
  • Reply Gen

    CONGRATULATIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is so flippin exciting I cannot contacin myself, I am going to phone ALL the people who you do not even know (cause Ive been telling them about my friend who is doing this etc ) so they ALL know you. The prayers have been going out BEYOND your blog etc

    I am sooooo happy for you !!!!!!

    Go go go go go go go go go go go go

    December 8, 2009 at 7:33 am
  • Reply HopelesslyTTC

    Oh wow…head to toe goose pimples reading your post. That really is the best news!! KUP

    December 8, 2009 at 8:52 am
  • Reply Gail

    Wow Wow Wow! Congratulations! I am so happy for you. 🙂

    December 8, 2009 at 8:59 am
  • Reply Tam

    Everything will be fine my friend.

    She will love you as much as we do!! I’m so so happy for you guys Shaz, I can’t believe that you’re going to be a mom!!!!

    Will keep on sending prayers.

    Big hugs, I can’t wait to meet your little one!!!

    December 8, 2009 at 9:00 am
  • Reply Caroline

    YAY!!! I am SOOOOOO HAPPY for You both! All by beings are zinging reading this 😀
    You really know how to turn our taps on 🙂

    December 8, 2009 at 9:03 am
  • Reply Hanneke

    OMW Sharon, this is the most amazing news EVER !!!!!!!! I am so fantastically happy for you and I pray that all goes so well !!!! Good luck when meeting the BM, I am so sure that she will just love you guys immediately !!!!!

    December 8, 2009 at 9:07 am
  • Reply Nix

    You and W are in my thoughts and prayers. This is wonderful news.

    December 8, 2009 at 10:23 am
  • Reply Leigh

    After what you and W have been through, what an amazing amazing story! Wonderful!

    December 8, 2009 at 11:01 am
  • Reply SCY

    I cannot express how happy this news made me my friend. I’m gonna be an Aunty!!!!


    December 8, 2009 at 12:59 pm
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  • Reply Lynese

    Yay,yay, yay!!!!

    Congratulations! I know that I am sometimes guilty of limiting God. But this has reminded me once again of what he can do.
    Awesome indeed!!!

    December 8, 2009 at 1:38 pm
  • Reply loribeth

    Sharon, what wonderful news!!! Keeping you in my thoughts!

    December 8, 2009 at 7:00 pm
  • Reply Hayley

    Oh my word, what wonderful news!

    December 8, 2009 at 8:30 pm
  • Reply Kirsty

    Coming out of hiding to say YEEEHAA! Congrats to the mommy and daddy to be – so excited for you!

    December 8, 2009 at 11:34 pm
  • Reply CeCe

    I am crying and clapping! SO excited for you two!! She will love y’all as much as we do! I just know it!

    December 9, 2009 at 6:54 am
  • Reply Jellybean

    I am so excited for you, Sharon. Hoping that everthing works out perfectly.

    December 9, 2009 at 11:02 am
  • Reply monica lemoine

    OMG – this is amazing news! So exited for you Shaz!

    December 9, 2009 at 3:42 pm
  • Reply Yvonne

    OMW OMW my modem gets struck by lightening and I come back to THIS.
    I’ve been dying to hear how you are.
    WOW WOW WOW, I am so unbelievable happy for you Shaz.


    December 10, 2009 at 11:59 am
  • Reply coachmarcia

    I am tearing up (and I’m not a crier). This is so amazing – God is GOOD and you have come a LONG way.

    December 7, 2010 at 3:05 pm
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