5 Months Ago……….

At this time, 09h30, I was called to the labour ward to go with our birth mother to the delivery room. I watched as the bravest woman I ever met, went through the hectic final stages of labour, without any pain medication. I watched, tears streaming down my face, as she writhed in agony, gripping my hand, at times biting down on the knuckle of my thumb, as she went through those final stages… for those of you who have not experienced a natural birth, the final stage of labour is so hectic there is no break in the contractions, no respite from the pain. I watched her thrash about and make moaning sounds – not the over dramatic screaming you see in the movies, but a low, almost animal like moaning, as she laboured to birth our daughter.

I cannot believe that 5 months have past…….. 5 months since our incredible miracle! I’m still stunned by how our lives changed, in the blink of an eye one journey ended and a new one began.

Ava, mommy loves you in ways that no words could ever fully convey. I realize now that my mother loves me far more than I love her, how do I know? Because I know its impossible for Ava to love me as much as I love her. I understand what mothers love is now, I always thought I knew, but I didn’t, the depth and breadth of a mothers love. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would die for you my darling. Thank you for making me a better person, a softer, more vulnerable yet stronger and tougher person than I  ever thought myself capable of!

My hearts greatest desire fufilled!

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  • Reply thebinges

    Happy 5 months gorgeous girl.


    May 13, 2010 at 10:01 am
  • Reply Me

    Wow Sharon how time flies!!!

    These past 5 months have no doubt whizzed past for you and yet I feel like I’m still treading water in the same spot! LOL

    Hope the next 5 months go a little slower for you.

    May 13, 2010 at 10:03 am
  • Reply kirstymac72

    Happy 5 months gorgeous girl! x Shaz – can you email me the password for the previous post?

    May 13, 2010 at 10:08 am
  • Reply marina1605

    Happy 5 months Eva!!

    May 13, 2010 at 10:13 am
  • Reply marina1605

    Oh yes, also forgot. Please also mail me password for previous post, ta!

    May 13, 2010 at 10:13 am
  • Reply mommy2m

    Happy 5 months, beautiful Ava! Wishing you and your mom and dad all the very best on this special day!
    Sharon, she gets more beautiful by the day!
    Ava is precious beyond words! I still marvel everyday at this incredible, well deserved gift that you 3 have been given.

    May 13, 2010 at 10:15 am
  • Reply mayflowerladybugs

    Happy 5 months Gorgeous Girl!
    Being a mommy definitely gives one a new perspective of one’s own mother!

    May 13, 2010 at 10:19 am
  • Reply TJ

    One more month to you half birthday!

    May 13, 2010 at 10:24 am
  • Reply vroutjie

    She is just precious – congratulations and enjoy.

    May 13, 2010 at 10:27 am
  • Reply tanyakov

    Happy five months!

    I was also thinking about the mother love thing just yesterday, never knowing it was possible that one’s heart could stretch so wide and so deep. You never quite understand it til you’re there…

    May 13, 2010 at 10:34 am
  • Reply bethjane

    Happy 5 months!!

    There is nothing like a mother’s love.


    May 13, 2010 at 10:42 am
  • Reply skrambled

    And before you know it….she’ll be one! Time flies.

    May 13, 2010 at 10:57 am
  • Reply niseysmusings

    it just goes so quickly… you are all very blessed.

    May 13, 2010 at 11:21 am
  • Reply zamom

    Can’t believe it’s been 5 months already. My Ava is almost a year and I can honestly not believe I’m already organising her party, so this weekend’s Dedication will be good practise for her birthday!! One quick question. After having seen a natural birth, if you were to have a baby would you go natural(no drugs),natural(epidural)or caesar?

    May 13, 2010 at 11:29 am
  • Reply charnetrollip

    happy 5 months preciuos miracle girl xxx

    May 13, 2010 at 1:49 pm
  • Reply ninadan21

    Happy 5 months Ava!!!
    She is getting more and more beautiful by the day!

    May 13, 2010 at 3:35 pm
  • Reply darylfaure

    Beautifully put Sharon! Congrats on her 5 monthday..

    May 13, 2010 at 7:55 pm
  • Reply orbit365

    Such a moving post. Happy 5 months to Ava. And to you and Walter..x


    May 13, 2010 at 7:56 pm
  • Reply yvettene

    Congrats, time is flying, soon it will be 12 months. She is so happy, always smiling.

    May 13, 2010 at 10:28 pm
  • Reply ttcnot2easy

    What a beautiful post.
    Can’t believe how big she is!

    May 14, 2010 at 7:10 am
  • Reply lisab809

    Wow how the time flies. Happy 5 months little princess.

    May 14, 2010 at 7:48 am
  • Reply trishdg

    OMG Time is racing along! Happy 5 months Ava Darling.
    You must have a half birthday party for 6 months – Half a cake, some candles and balloons and the 3 of you, my kids love it!

    May 14, 2010 at 8:30 am
  • Reply wheresmybun

    Happy Five months! She’s so adorable!

    May 14, 2010 at 9:36 am
  • Reply mozzie01

    Beautiful post my friend…

    May 14, 2010 at 9:13 pm
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