I’ve made no secret of the fact that the past few weeks have been really tough ones for both Walter and I and of course for Ava as well. But things have started settling back into the old routine again, for the past 4 nights Ava has reverted back to sleeping from 7pm to around 7am.  She is happy and cheerful and aside from the weird fevers and flu like symptoms this weekend, all has returned to peaceful and happy in our household.

My mom came for a visit this  past weekend and she brought with her a CD for Ava as I play music and sing with her when we dress or bath and sometimes just to play. Its from the Praise Baby collection, and the CD we received is called My Father’s Word. This morning, while I was getting her dressed for the day, we were listening to the CD and I was singing along, when one of my favorite songs from church started to play:

Having Ava come into our lives in the totally unexpected way in which she did has really humbled me. And while I am a spiritual person and a firm believer in God and in Jesus Christ, I’ve not been very vocal about it to others, its very private to me and has nothing to do with anybody else.

But this song, the words of this song, even almost 10 months after Ava’s arrival in our lives, still has the power to bring me to my knees, to have the tears stream down my face and my heart filled with gratitude for the miracle God has given us.

From the start of this journey, I have clung to a bible verse: Psalms 113:9

He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD.

I hope and pray that I will never forget, nor loose my sense of wonder at how God fulfilled this promise to me!