A Privileged Mother

15 Months

This weekend, it was with a very heavy heart that I packed out Ava-Grace’s entire wardrobe and packed it all away for her sister, Emily.

*Yes, Walter has decided that our second child will also be a girl and her name is Emily!*

When I lovingly folded up all the little onesies and tiny socks and little shorts and little t-shirts, I really had to stop myself from sobbing. It’s only now, 16 months in, that I fully grasp and understand what all my mom friends have been saying – they grow so quickly. Ava has even out grown her hooded towels, she now uses a regular bath towel, there are very few traces left, of the baby she once was.

Her development has literally started speeding up to the point that is has begun feeling like I’m watching a National Geographic documentary where they show the speeded up footage of the growth of a flower, a tiny bud at first but opening up into beautiful full bloom in the matter of seconds.

Last week, I had a baby that walked like a litter orangutan, arms stretched up in the air, as she uncertainly took unaided steps, each day walking further and further. Fast forward to the weekend, I literally have a child that can RUN and who wants to jump on the trampoline all the time and when I try to take her off, she runs away. She’s also started climbing on jungle gyms – be still my pounding terrified heart!

On Friday night, she also took a sip of my cool drink through a straw and since then has refused all her sippy cups, so they have now all been packed away and replaced with anything that can be drunk through a straw.

Don’t even get me started on her vocabulary…. remember her first words were: “Oh No!” and that lasted for quite sometime but in the past 5 days her vocabulary has suddenly started to develop to the point where she’s saying & learning a few new words every day. I wonder for how much longer I’m going to be able to keep track of her vocabulary? For now she knows the following words:  Mama, Dada, Oh No, Dog, Cow, Moo, Miey (Miley our Chihuahua) and Dexie (Dexter our Chihuahua) Eyes, Ears, Nose, Toes, Juice, Straw, kiss, Hi, Hello, Bye, shoes, cheese. I’m just astounded that this time last week she new 4 words and suddenly… bam… there are all these new words coming out.

It is such a bitter-sweet experience, exciting knowing that we’re going into a new phase with new challenges, and she is so waaay cuter than she was as a tiny baby, but my heart aches for the tiny baby she was and never will be again.

I’m realizing more, with each passing day, what a great privilege being her mother is turning out to be. I feel so blessed and so privileged to watch this beautiful flower grow & learn.

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  • Reply lea2109

    They do indeed grow up so fast.

    April 11, 2011 at 9:41 pm
  • Reply Yvonne

    Ahhh I know that feeling so well – the voyage through motherhood certainly is bittersweet. I so often want to cling desperately to the old stages whilst looking so forward to the new ones..

    Mine are now 6 and nearly 4 years, and let me tell you that so far it has just kept getting better and better 🙂 I do occasionally miss the baby days but there is still LOts to look forward to, promise!

    April 12, 2011 at 6:59 am
  • Reply To Love Bella

    It is simultaneously mad and awe-inspiring how quickly they grown and develop in their first years! Looking at a 2-week old baby on Sunday, I was convinced that Isabella was never EVER that small. No ways. Why can’t I remember that? I came across one of her sized 1 nappies the other day and couldn’t believe that a body so small could fit into it. Wouldn’t it be lovely to just press pause? Just for a day or so?

    April 12, 2011 at 7:06 am
  • Reply tzipieastwest

    Sharon, it must be such a privilege to be Ava’s mother and you are doing a good job at it !!
    I am glad that you are on a waiting list and that the clothes you packed are just going to be stored temporarely but will be used again !!

    April 12, 2011 at 9:24 am
  • Reply Tanya Kovarsky

    I hear you! As much as I love Max’s stage, I get teary thinking of when he fitted into the crook of my arm, and everything was so small and new (which was terrifying too).

    April 12, 2011 at 10:50 am
  • Reply coachmarcia

    I know!!! They grow so quickly at this age it’s cute and terrible all at the same time.

    PS I love the name Emily!

    April 12, 2011 at 2:11 pm
  • Reply suestuart

    That is just too cute! Although Katy understands a lot, she hasn’t actually said much other than woof, and the usual mamamama/dadadadada/nononono so I am really looking forward to when she actually says something.

    I’m also concerned about the climbing, and have decided to give Clamber Club a try this term. We don’t have a jungle gym, but I do want to get her some kind of swing and slide set.

    I hope that when next you take out all those lovely things you are packing away, that they will bring back many good memories 🙂

    April 12, 2011 at 4:42 pm
  • Reply orbit365

    Awww…I LOVE the name Emily and I hope that she won’t take too long to make an appearance.
    It is bittersweet. Knowing that they are growing up and are going to be needing us less and less and at the same time knowing that they are going into a new stage of development and literally have the world at their feet.
    Hugs my friend.xx

    April 23, 2011 at 11:24 am
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