An Uneasy Calm

I guess that would be the best way to explain how I’m feeling right now. You’ll recall that a while ago I wrote a piece about what to expect when I’m expecting, and I really anticiated being overcome by anxiety again this time around but so far its been ok. Don’t get me wrong, I have moments when I’m overcome by anxiety but so far they’re the exception more than the rule. We were away for the weekend which was probably a good thing, kept me distracted. But there were a couple of moments over the weekend when I’d stop what I was doing and frantically start searching for a bathroom to do a frantic pantie check but so far so good. I think this weekend was good, it also gave me a chance to have the news settle a bit. I mean, I’m 3 days late for AF, so I guess I can accept that I did not imagine the phone call saying I’d had a BFP.

So the next big hurdle is tomorrow when I go for my repeat beta, which should be in the region of 150 – 200 (God willing) and for now I’m feeling fairly calm. My last pregnancy my first beta was very similar to this time around  – CD27 = 29 ; CD29 = 79; CD31 = 201 so I’m anticipating the same kind of climb this time around. So I guess there’s nothing to do except wait it out and see what tomorrow brings…

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  • Reply Hela

    Sharon, We are all holding thumbs for this next hurdle! I know you have a long way to go until you can totally relax and just let this pregnancy progress with very little worry.
    Thinking of you each day and praying that you find peace and calm through the anxieties. And it’s really nice to hear that your anxieties are the exceptions!

    October 12, 2009 at 8:17 am
  • Reply Lea White

    Ooh, lots of thoughts and prayers for tomorrow especially. I’m so glad that you do have calm moments too.

    October 12, 2009 at 8:31 am
  • Reply Cruella Deville

    I`m praying for a good beta count tomorrow. You are constantly in my thoughts.

    October 12, 2009 at 8:52 am
  • Reply Jenny

    Can’t wait for tomorrow. But I understand how you feel. Like I told my husband, a positive beta is only the first tiny step xx

    October 12, 2009 at 9:05 am
  • Reply jan

    thinking and praying and sending out love to you shari! uber super duper pretzeling myself!

    October 12, 2009 at 9:13 am
  • Reply Chrisle-Dubai

    I have been praying for you and believe everything is going to be just fine. Live for the moment.

    October 12, 2009 at 9:27 am
  • Reply Kim M

    Hi Sharon
    I just saw your wonderful news after reading the infertility site. Haven’t checked updates in a while since I’m not in the IVF space any more. Fantastic for you though!!

    October 12, 2009 at 9:38 am
  • Reply SCY

    Tomorrow’s beta will be “FUNTUSIC – YOU IDIOT” đŸ™‚

    Cannot wait to hear what it’s climbed too!


    October 12, 2009 at 10:50 am
  • Reply Cindy

    Hoping tomorrow….and many more events to come…are nothing but GOOD. Thinking calming thoughts for you.

    October 12, 2009 at 11:22 am
  • Reply Catluva

    Hi Sharon,
    Let me just say one thing, you will never stop with the panty check, after 8 years of various fertility treatments I was blessed with a little boy who is now 6 months old – for my entire pregnancy with him I checked for spotting every time I went to the loo. Now I am pregnant again, almost 15 weeks with no fertility and I’m still checking (they do say that once the problem is fixed and you’ve had a baby – it’s fixed for good – no kidding, I was pregnant on my first ovulation after having my son).
    I wish you a happy, healthy and safe pregnancy, am holding fingers and toes for your next count.

    October 12, 2009 at 11:28 am
  • Reply sassy

    Just thinking about you, and cheering for you!

    October 12, 2009 at 12:25 pm
  • Reply Sian

    It’s gonna be good! Holding thumbs.

    October 12, 2009 at 1:42 pm
  • Reply Beth

    Looking forward to hearing a great count tomorrow!


    October 12, 2009 at 2:24 pm
  • Reply Kristin

    Keeping my fingers crossed and praying for wonderful numbers.

    October 12, 2009 at 5:16 pm
  • Reply Sandy

    Hi Shaz,

    Just coming out of lurkdom to let you know I’ve got my fingers crossed for you!

    October 13, 2009 at 12:34 am
  • Reply CeCe Garrett

    Praying. And OWNING that you will have a great number and a crazy wonderful 40 weeks.

    October 13, 2009 at 1:46 am
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