It’s one week till my birthday and I have all the meh’s! Which sucks because I LOVE birthday’s. I love celebrating, I love the time with my friends but this year I’m just not feeling it! I want to do something with my friends but I don’t know what.
We were supposed to go away for my birthday but had to cancel. So much of disappointment.
Walter’s car just had an outrageously expensive service and so of course, the clutch on my car is the process of packing up.
I had my first bumper bashing EVER last week Friday. It was horrid and it was sort of my fault! Luckily I wasn’t doing anything dumb like texting while driving. I rear ended someone when they stopped suddenly after another car reversed out into the road at high speed.
Did I mention, my oven is also in the process of packing up, the top element has stopped working, hence the slow roasting I’m focusing on for the month of June. Probably a good thing otherwise I’d be baking and eating ALL the cake right now.
It’s more than a month since I quit smoking and I miss my ciggies, ex-smokers, tell me this will pass? Because it feels like its sucked the fun right out of everything. I find myself wanting to live a hermit’s existence because socializing is so hard. We went to a 40th birthday party on Saturday night and I spent the better part of the evening enjoying snuggling up to a cuddly puppy under a blanket.
I want to eat all the chocolates but I have this hideous and overwhelming fear of getting fat again. It’s really quite awful and sometimes I worry that my fear/obsession with my weight and getting fat again isn’t normal or healthy.
I’m not sleeping well at the moment and have been having the most bizarre and inexplicable dreams. Two nights ago, I dreamt my children were kidnapped and I’ve had a horrid sense of anxiety since then.
I’m not getting as much exercise as I’d like. Which is also feeding into my fear and anxiety over getting fat again. I’ve got a pinched nerve in my buttock and a lingering sore throat which is not helping either.
So ja, everything is feeling kind of sucky right now. #FirstWorldProblems I know, I have a lot to be thankful for but just can’t seem to see the wood for the trees at the moment which sucks and I find myself getting frustrated with myself!
So someone quickly, give me a swift, roundhouse kick to the side of my head and tell me to get over myself please?