Frantic Bathroom Breaks…

Have begun! Yesterday morning, exactly 48 hours past transfer IT happened! The thing I’ve been dreading! The thing that ALWAYS happens in my 2ww.  I went to the loo and on examining the loo paper found……… brown blood! Frantically ripped more loo paper off the role and checked again, bigger smudge of brown spotting…. hysterically rip more loo paper off the roll, check again… slighter smudge of spotting… sobbing yank more paper off the roll, check again… nothing!

This is how every single on of my IVF’s has ended! The surprising part is that it happened so early, CD20… two days past transfer. Its a record, previously the earliers I’d shown signs of bleeding was 5 days past transfer.

Thankfully I have an easily accessable RE so I was able to send him an SMS and have him call me back. He has assured me that I should not freak out (yeah right)or panic, that its far too early as part of my natural cycle to be bleeding and that its most likely as a result of the difficult transfer.

But now the real torture has begun in earnest. The surreptitious toilet breaks, the close examination of loo paper, the imagined or not imagined cramps……..

God help me!


  • SassyCupcakes

    October 2, 2009 at 6:04 am

    Could it be implantation spotting? I don’t know where you’re at mentally right now, but I’m still hoping for you and your three little embies. I wish I could say something or do something to make this time easier for you. *hug*

  • Esperanza

    October 2, 2009 at 7:04 am

    Just a question, and maybe I’m missing something, but couldn’t it be implantation bleeding? Do you not get that with IVF cycles? I hope it turns out to be good news, somehow…

  • Gen

    October 2, 2009 at 8:01 am

    Im thinking of you, and know so well about these bloody “toilet” breaks. !!!!
    Try stay +++++ I know all too well that it is easier said than done, but Im really praying hard for you.

  • Melanie

    October 2, 2009 at 8:42 am

    Thinking of you and keeping you in prayers as always 😉
    Try hang in there, i know easier said than done but you are a strong woman, and you have gone through so much, So you deserve your happy ending, I have a good feeling about this one.
    Huge hugs specially for you

  • Yvonne

    October 2, 2009 at 9:38 am

    Sorry Shaz. 🙁 The stress must be unbelievable.
    It could well be implantation bleeding…here’s hoping!!
    How long until 1st beta?

  • Adi

    October 2, 2009 at 10:43 am

    Ag no 🙁 . It’s just so incredibly early, and I know, it is perhaps a plaster to hope that it is implantation spotting, but if it is not, it just doesn’t make sense. Why so early? I wish there was a little camera thingy that one could put in there with the blast so that it could track what is happening. I really hope this is just a scare. Pls keep us posted. So sorry for all the stuff that must be going through your mind right now, keep strong.

  • SCY

    October 2, 2009 at 11:05 am

    FAAAAARK! I know how scary it is my friend, but I am so glad that it’s stopped! Here for you anytime – I’m only ever a call or text or skype away 😉


  • Cindy

    October 2, 2009 at 11:12 am

    Ugh. I’m so sorry this has to be anything but ‘normal’ and ‘standard’. Hang in there. May the next week pass by quickly…and have good things at the end of it.

  • Misty

    October 2, 2009 at 4:09 pm

    Implantation bleeding. Don’t make yourself believe anything else! What did your friend say last time. Hope is like saying “Thank you” not “Please” (or something like that…). Implantation bleeding….implantation bleeding…implantation bleeding.

  • Hela

    October 2, 2009 at 4:46 pm

    We’re all thinking of you and really hoping it’s not the end of your embryos but only the very early beginnings of a beautiful pregnancy.

    Must be so difficult and there are many of us that don’t know what stress and mental frustrations you are going through right now. All I know is that I’m holding all things crossed for you and W!


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