Frantic Bathroom Breaks…

Have begun! Yesterday morning, exactly 48 hours past transfer IT happened! The thing I’ve been dreading! The thing that ALWAYS happens in my 2ww.Β  I went to the loo and on examining the loo paper found……… brown blood! Frantically ripped more loo paper off the role and checked again, bigger smudge of brown spotting…. hysterically rip more loo paper off the roll, check again… slighter smudge of spotting… sobbing yank more paper off the roll, check again… nothing!

This is how every single on of my IVF’s has ended! The surprising part is that it happened so early, CD20… two days past transfer. Its a record, previously the earliers I’d shown signs of bleeding was 5 days past transfer.

Thankfully I have an easily accessable RE so I was able to send him an SMS and have him call me back. He has assured me that I should not freak out (yeah right)or panic, that its far too early as part of my natural cycle to be bleeding and that its most likely as a result of the difficult transfer.

But now the real torture has begun in earnest. The surreptitious toilet breaks, the close examination of loo paper, the imagined or not imagined cramps……..

God help me!

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  • Reply Lea White

    Huge, huge hugs. I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of stress you are having to face each day. As always I am praying very very hard that this will be your moment!

    October 2, 2009 at 5:36 am
  • Reply SassyCupcakes

    Could it be implantation spotting? I don’t know where you’re at mentally right now, but I’m still hoping for you and your three little embies. I wish I could say something or do something to make this time easier for you. *hug*

    October 2, 2009 at 6:04 am
  • Reply Kristin

    Oh honey…it is so hard not to give into those neuroses. {{{Hugs}}}

    October 2, 2009 at 6:18 am
  • Reply monica lemoine

    EEK Shaz, that sounds so freakin’ aggravating! Wish I had some advice…massage? Yoga? Chocolate? Yikes.

    October 2, 2009 at 6:28 am
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    Or maybe it’s implantation spotting…. I had the same thing after my embryos were transferred (maybe 3dp3dt). Hmmmm??

    October 2, 2009 at 6:36 am
  • Reply Esperanza

    Just a question, and maybe I’m missing something, but couldn’t it be implantation bleeding? Do you not get that with IVF cycles? I hope it turns out to be good news, somehow…

    October 2, 2009 at 7:04 am
  • Reply Gen

    Im thinking of you, and know so well about these bloody “toilet” breaks. !!!!
    Try stay +++++ I know all too well that it is easier said than done, but Im really praying hard for you.

    October 2, 2009 at 8:01 am
  • Reply sassy

    Oh sweetie… I’m thinking about you… xoxo

    October 2, 2009 at 8:39 am
  • Reply Melanie

    Thinking of you and keeping you in prayers as always πŸ˜‰
    Try hang in there, i know easier said than done but you are a strong woman, and you have gone through so much, So you deserve your happy ending, I have a good feeling about this one.
    Huge hugs specially for you

    October 2, 2009 at 8:42 am
  • Reply Rach

    I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it was implantation bleeding, that was my first thought…..


    October 2, 2009 at 9:08 am
  • Reply Abs

    2ww is hell Shaz. There is nothing I can say to make it otherwise.Looking forward to bitching about it some more on Sunday!((Hugs))

    October 2, 2009 at 9:23 am
  • Reply Jenny

    I’m putting money on implantation bleeding…!

    October 2, 2009 at 9:27 am
  • Reply Yvonne

    Sorry Shaz. πŸ™ The stress must be unbelievable.
    It could well be implantation bleeding…here’s hoping!!
    How long until 1st beta?

    October 2, 2009 at 9:38 am
  • Reply Cruella Deville

    Just wanted to say that I am thinking of you!!

    I am following this cycle with tightly held thumbs.

    October 2, 2009 at 9:47 am
  • Reply Adi

    Ag no πŸ™ . It’s just so incredibly early, and I know, it is perhaps a plaster to hope that it is implantation spotting, but if it is not, it just doesn’t make sense. Why so early? I wish there was a little camera thingy that one could put in there with the blast so that it could track what is happening. I really hope this is just a scare. Pls keep us posted. So sorry for all the stuff that must be going through your mind right now, keep strong.

    October 2, 2009 at 10:43 am
  • Reply SCY

    FAAAAARK! I know how scary it is my friend, but I am so glad that it’s stopped! Here for you anytime – I’m only ever a call or text or skype away πŸ˜‰


    October 2, 2009 at 11:05 am
  • Reply Cindy

    Ugh. I’m so sorry this has to be anything but ‘normal’ and ‘standard’. Hang in there. May the next week pass by quickly…and have good things at the end of it.

    October 2, 2009 at 11:12 am
  • Reply Rach

    Hey hon, I nominated you for an award on my blog, please stop by and check it out!


    October 2, 2009 at 4:02 pm
  • Reply Misty

    Implantation bleeding. Don’t make yourself believe anything else! What did your friend say last time. Hope is like saying “Thank you” not “Please” (or something like that…). Implantation bleeding….implantation bleeding…implantation bleeding.

    October 2, 2009 at 4:09 pm
  • Reply Hela

    We’re all thinking of you and really hoping it’s not the end of your embryos but only the very early beginnings of a beautiful pregnancy.

    Must be so difficult and there are many of us that don’t know what stress and mental frustrations you are going through right now. All I know is that I’m holding all things crossed for you and W!

    October 2, 2009 at 4:46 pm
  • Reply Dee

    Just know that I am thinking of you xxx

    October 2, 2009 at 7:14 pm
  • Reply Stacey

    Thinking of you and praying for you and those embies!!! Sending love and prayers while you wait.

    October 2, 2009 at 11:14 pm
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