Misery Loves Company

You know how you see in the movies during a fight, how a dude will be kicked in the crotch and then when he falls down to the ground, somebody will deliver a nice hard, swing with all your might, kick in the stomach?

That’s what if feels like for me right now. I’m that dude, who received the swift kick in the crotch, that feel to the ground and while I was lying there fate/hope/infertility came along with with all his might swung a kick into my stomach that has knocked the wind out of me.

Yesterday I emailed my RE about my suspected chemical pregnancy and whether or not I’d been tested for Natural Killer Cells, this was his response:

We do not have a good reference laboratory test for natural killer cells.  We would manage the patient if there was a high index of suspicion.  We can except that in the light of your history that you potentially do have an elevated natural killer cell activity in the for we can apply other forms of management is to you empirically in order to lower at the natural killer cell activity.


 So now I wait to see him to discuss this further. I’m not 100% certain of what treatment for NKC will entail, but whatever it is, I have a feeling its going to add additional costs to our already pricey IVF and further strain on my poor body.


It really feels like everytime I jump a hurdle another one comes and me and the more hurdles I jump the faster they come at me and I’m jumping as high and as fast as I can, but I’m getting tired and very soon my foot is going to hook on one of those hurdles and I’m going to fall flat on my face, bloody knees and scraped elbows and I’m not going to be able to get up again.

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  • Reply Elize

    (((HUGS))) hon. I don’t know what else to say. I’m there for you, thinking about you and praying for you.

    February 3, 2009 at 9:30 am
  • Reply Abbey

    Great metaphor…except the best part of the movie is when the bad guy starts to walk away thinking the good guy is dead and then wham!…he makes a come back and smacks the other guy right back but harder than before! I’m praying we get to make our come backs Sharon!
    I think that the meticortin they give you after egg retrieval is a precaution for NKC’s? they might just put you onto them earlier in the cycle? When is your appointment with Dr G so you can discuss this? I know how hard it is to have unanswered questions. They keep you awake all night and keep running over in your mind all day…and google only add’s fuel to that fire! Hope you get some answers soon!
    X Abbey

    February 3, 2009 at 9:46 am
  • Reply Amanda

    Oh sweetie, I don’t know what to say. Sending you hugs and love!!

    February 3, 2009 at 10:06 am
  • Reply WiseGuy

    Really…there are no wise words that I can belt out right now, which could be labelled appropriate. I just hope and pray for you and your family. I hope that there is some breakthrough finally…

    February 3, 2009 at 11:51 am
  • Reply janin


    February 3, 2009 at 2:00 pm
  • Reply samcy

    *sigh* My friend I know how you feel. This sucks, major hairy hairballs!

    You’re in my thoughts. Always.


    February 3, 2009 at 2:09 pm
  • Reply Yvonne

    Oh man 🙁
    Big hugs,this has to end somewhere good.

    February 3, 2009 at 4:48 pm
  • Reply Selmada

    The treatments vary as to the costs, from very little (taking prednizone) to quite high. I found Dr Beers book the best reference.
    At least this is something that can point to hope.

    February 3, 2009 at 7:55 pm
  • Reply Lea White

    Just wanted to come and offer hugs and prayers!

    February 3, 2009 at 8:04 pm
  • Reply Monica

    Goodness gosh, this sounds so awful-not-fun. I agree – this has to end somewhere!

    February 4, 2009 at 6:20 am
  • Reply stacey

    I’m so sorry that the hits keep on coming. 🙁
    I’m praying you’ll catch a break SOON.

    February 4, 2009 at 8:05 am
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