I see yesterday’s post generated a lot of interest! Mmm I wonder why? My blog stats literally doubled and went to well over a 1000 hits yesterday. I suppose the content of the message got a lot of tongues wagging and I’ve never been one to fall on my mouth, I have no problem expressing myself and letting it all hang out, no matter how ugly it may be.
And it landed up being a pretty pointless exercise too because I don’t feel any better about the situation, in fact, on some levels I feel worse. I’m hurt in ways I never thought I would be.
Anyway, onwards and upwards and no looking back! I’ll get over it, I’ve overcome a lot in the 7 odd years we tried for a baby, in fact, I’ll go a step further and say I’ve overcome a lot in my life, infertility be damned, its not the only crappy thing that has happened in my life. I got hurt plenty of times but I did recover and I will from this too.
Its been a bit of an ephifany for me, I’ve had a couple of rather jolting realizations about myself and infertility in general and what it does to us as individuals and I’ll say this, its not all nice. But when we can name it we can claim it and move on from it instead of hiding behind it.
And that’s what I’m choosing to do, moving right along now!