The Final Count Down

7 more BCP’s to go……….

I’m getting excited about actively doing fertility treatment again! I can’t wait to get started but I’m also terrified of what the result may be.

Its actually funny, for anyone reading who didn’t know anything about infertility may think I’m a sadist. I mean I’m excited for the following:

Beautiful Di.ldo cam scan on day 2!!!

Blood test on day 2

Two injections a day till +/- day 12/3

One SERIOUSLY burny injection on day +/- 14

Lots more blood tests along the way…….

LOVELY egg retrieval for which I’m sh*tting myself after my last very unpleasant experience during which I learned that Dormican Sedation does not leave me SEDATED!!!

Then the true horror begins, the dread lab phone call each morning to hear how our babies are doing.

Then the tranfer. The last time I had three people doing their best to get a truly nice close up of my vajayjay, with a gigantic shiny surgical light hanging from the ceiling,in which I could see the reflection of my own vajayjay!

And then two weeks of bloating and feeling yuk from all the medications, two weeks of insomnia, two weeks of obsessing, of thinking yes it worked, followed by now ways it could have worked. Crazy noise in my head.

Yup, I think I’m a sadist to be excited about that!


  • Lea White

    February 18, 2009 at 6:11 am

    Sorry I had to laugh about the way you wrote how these people stand really close and you can see your own reflection.

    I think you are extremely brave and amazing. And whilst I don’t believe you are actually looking forward to the procedures, perhaps it is looking forward to be one step closer to your goal, to get those procedures out of the way.

    Hugs, prayers and thoughts as always!

  • Michelle

    February 18, 2009 at 8:32 am

    Think we should form the “Sadists club” Shaz!
    You truly have a way of explaining it so nicely. Hehehe. Glad you gettig excited now – only a week left. Yey!

  • Abbey

    February 18, 2009 at 9:08 am

    Wow Sharon, 1 week left! I’m sure you are eqaully as scared as you are excited. Your post really made me laugh. On a more serious note though I wouldn’t say you are a sadist but rather a woman with so much strength inside of her that she is able to face this huge ordeal head on with a smile on her face and joy in her heart. You deserve your happy ending Sharon, I’m praying this is your time.

    xox Abbey

  • Mermaid

    February 18, 2009 at 12:52 pm

    Well, if you put it like that! 🙂
    Oh my, that light.. Just freaks me out a little. Oh the things that we would do!
    I am officially “waiting” again, and trying my utmost to keep my mind occupied with all things bright and beautiful. One more week to go.
    Good luck with your cycle! Hope everything goes well!

  • 'Murgdan'

    February 18, 2009 at 1:34 pm

    Nah. Because what you’re really excited about is the possibility of a watermelon sized baby being squeezed out of said much smaller vajayjay 9 months after all of this nonsense……ok, yeah, putting it like that we are all definitely sadists.

  • Sam

    February 18, 2009 at 8:08 pm

    Hehe, too true… we must all be bloody sadists… but then again what we’re actually into is the possibility of having that baby after the sadistic stuff 😉



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