Lets be honest, infertility is hard, like any hardship or trial in life, its tough and if I had a choice I’d choose not to go through this. I’d choose not to battle for so many years, I’d choose not to loose 6 precious little babies alone the way. But there is one thing I would always choose, that is the love and support of the most incredible women that I’ve met along this journey. Every now and again something happens that reminds me of just how fortunate I am to be able to share my life with some of the most incredible women from all over the world.
Yesterday, on Mother’s Day, I received yet another reminder of how incredibley blessed I am to know these warrior women. My friend CeCe is going through a rough time herself at the moment, she’s staring down the barrel of a cancelled IVF cycle, so aside from dealing with all the emotions that go along with that, yesterday must have hurt for her too, for while she’s blessed with a beautiful little girl, she too knows the ache of the loss of a baby and yet, she took the time to send me the most beautiful message on Face Book, a message that brought tears to my eyes but a message that was like a little bit of salve for my soul, here is what she said:
I am SO sure that one day soon, you will be celebrating this day with a child of your own. Its not something I can explain, but it IS something I know. I know that today, you feel like Hannah… who went ages without bearing a child. Have you read her story in the Bible? Anyways.. I wanted to give you something and since you live so far away and I can’t take you out for a glass of wine? I am giving you something to keep… until you can pass it on to your child.
A letter to Sharon’s child.
Dear sweet baby,
I want you to know a few things about why your Mommy is so special today. Most mommies celebrate Mother’s Day by getting a card, some flowers, a nice dinner out… never knowing what a true gift each day is with their kids. Your mom, however, is SO very different. She prayed each day for you. She asked God for a baby for a long long time. And God knew your Mommy was so special, that not just any child would do. When God made you and knitted you into Mommy’s womb, he took each prayer for you… the ones prayed by Mommy, Daddy and all of the women your Mommy’s heart touched in the time she was waiting and God made you to fit each prayer. See? you are SO lucky to have your Mommy… because of her, you have been blessed long before you were placed in her arms. You may be a wee young baby today, but you have lived in her heart forever. Little one, you are a an answered prayer… a living breathing answered prayer. Rest now and know that no one deserves you more than your Mommy.
(keep your head up and know that you are loved, held and being prepared for a lifetime career in motherhood. I love you.)
CeCe, you are a truly amazing women, in the midst of your own sadness and pain, you still find the time & energy to be so loving and supportive of so many others. Please can I ask all my readers to hold CeCe up in prayer today and pray that all will go well with what remains of her IVF cycle.
Love ya Girl!