Then & Now

Last year, in March ’09m, I took this photo of myself. My 4th fresh IVF had just failed, I was completley crushed and feeling very hopeless. I dyed my hair very dark brown as I wanted my “outsides to match my insides”. I felt lost, I felt hopeless, I was depressed and I pretty much felt dead on the inside and that totally shines through in the photo, my eyes are lifeless, my mouth is set in a rather grim line. There is no joy, no hint of happiness anywhere on this face.



Its ironic that it was around the the time that this photo was taken, that my beautiful Ava was being conceived. Then when I shared some of the  photo’s we had done with the photographer, a fellow blogger noted the differences in my face between then and now.

Granted, I was quite a bit thinner in the first shot, but there is no denying that the grimness and of depression and emptiness have left my face to be replaced by a peaceful calm, a

sheen of underlying joy and its all because of this beautiful child:


Its still a lesson for me that life can change in the blink of an eye! You just never know what is waiting around the corner for your!!

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  • Reply Kristin

    I think you look absolutely amazing now!

    January 27, 2010 at 5:19 am
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    I like that second picture better. And Ava just gets cuter with every photo!!

    January 27, 2010 at 6:13 am
  • Reply Hanneke

    You are truly radiant, you can see all the love and happiness just shining!!!

    Ahhh and that cute little Ava !! She is gorgeous!!

    January 27, 2010 at 7:27 am
  • Reply Chopper1

    Sharon – you are just beautiful! I’ve always said that when a woman becomes a mommy, her face changes completely – and it rings true with you. You are looking so amazing – and your happiness is blatantly obvious in your recent photo’s. xxx

    January 27, 2010 at 9:08 am
  • Reply Mich

    You’re a radiant mommy Shaz! Even with lack of sleep.

    January 27, 2010 at 9:14 am
  • Reply WiseGuy


    January 27, 2010 at 11:27 am
  • Reply Katherine

    Remarkable difference between the 2 photos. Who would have thought that something so small, that demands one’s full-time attention, and keeps you up at night, can also make you look so beautiful!!!

    January 27, 2010 at 11:38 am
  • Reply Christine

    Ava is just so gorgeous!

    January 27, 2010 at 11:54 am
  • Reply Marina

    Ava is so cute Sharon and you’re looking great!

    January 27, 2010 at 1:30 pm
  • Reply Denise

    Sleep deprivation suits you 😉

    January 27, 2010 at 3:30 pm
  • Reply Julia

    Motherhood has made you so radiant. And I love your smiley girl pics of Ava..xx

    January 27, 2010 at 3:52 pm
  • Reply Sian

    It’s a fantastic miracle. Still so happy for you.

    January 27, 2010 at 6:14 pm
  • Reply SassyCupcakes

    I was thinking the same thing the other day. How different you look. It’s so good to see the glow you have. I can’t wait until next years photo when you’ve had some sleep and a whole year of love with Ava. 🙂

    January 28, 2010 at 11:57 am
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