I saw something today which has left me tormented. I saw something today that shocked me to my core. I saw something today that made me realize how lucky I was to have the parents I have. I saw something today which made me realize how lucky Ava is to have Walter and I as her Mommy and Daddy. I saw something today that has reminded me what a terrible place the world can be. I saw something today that made me ask the age-old question of why God allows some “human beings” to be parents!

I saw a woman, yank a little boys blonde hair so hard that his head cracked back and when he fell to the floor she slapped him so hard across the face that I heard the sting of the slap from about 20m’s away. And when he looked up as she stood menacingly over him, and looked at her in utter fear, she smacked again in the face, again so hard his little head spun and again I could hear the sting of the slap from where I was sitting 20m’s away. I saw the three other children she had with her, the eldest couldn’t have been more than 8 or 9 years old, I saw the fear in their faces, I saw how they all stared at the ground while she stood over them spitting venom from her disgusting mouth. I saw another shopper walk past and say something to her and her retaliation at the passer-by. I saw security go over to her and say something and after he had walked away I saw how she dished out a silver coin to each of these terrified children, how they took it in such a meek and defeated way.

I saw when their mother came out of the shop (must have been a gay couple, the woman doing the abusing could have passed for a man with boobs) how the two of them marched off with 4 terrified little children scuttling behind them. I saw all of this and realized these children were being abused.

I’ve been tormented ever since I saw them. I can’t stop thinking about what is going to happen to them. I can’t stop thinking about what they’re suffering through tonight.

But most of all I’m tormented by the fact that I did nothing, that I was too shocked and too stunned to even react. That my heart and my head screamed on the inside and that my hands burned with a desire to go over there and give her as good as she’d given.

I’m just tormented. I feel sick on the inside and I wonder if I’ll get any sleep tonight!