We’re still with my parents in Cape Town, so quickly just “dialing in” yes, you read right, “dialing in” from my parents connection so need to be quick. No time to post my birth story, but also still trying to digest everything that happened yesterday. As soon as we’re home, on Wednesday and settled, I’ll post about the most amazing experience ever. The day I stood in awe of this amazing woman and what she gave to me!
For now, I wanted to share a reaction I hadn’t anticipated. I knew that I would love Ava, I knew that I would bond with her. What I didn’t expect was just how ferociiously and quickly those feelings would come. I’d heard about mother’s love before, but nothing prepared me for its true power. The little noises she makes when she drinks and the little moans she makes when she sleeps turn me to jelly, they melt me on the inside the way nothing else ever have. I can, with all honestly say that I’ve turned into a tiger, one that will rip to shreds anything intruder into her den of kittens. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would stand in front of a speeding train to save my child. Nothing could have prepared me for the sheer overwhelming strength of my emotion for her, it is fierce, it is beyond explanation.
Having said all that, I still cannot believe the beautiful gift I’ve been given, in an instant she has wiped away 7 years of pain and heartache. For my friends still in the trenches, I say this to you…. as clichéd as it sounds, as much as I hated hearing new mum’s say this before, I say to you now, it was worth every tear, every injection, every pain, every disappointment that I’ve been through in the past 7 and a half years.