What A Difference A Year Makes!

This time last year I wrote this: Now The Torture Begins.

Its hard to believe that a year has past since that fateful FET, my 5th IVF treatment. I feel so detached from it all when I read the posts from September and October 2009. The apprehension over the FET, the emotional torture of the 2ww, the excitement over our BFP and then the crushing devastation of my subsequent miscarriage and my confused emotions there after.

Its hard for me to explain, but when I read those posts, its like it happened to someone else, I have no emotion over it, not anger, sadness, anxiety, nothing. I read those posts and I’m so detached its as if it happened to someone else.

But its also a reminder of just how fast life can change. I had my embryo transfer on the 29th September 2009 and by the 29th of December, a mere 3 months later, I had a two week old baby.

And that is what is so magical and special about adoption, in the blink of an eye, my fortunes changed, my heart was healed and life as I knew it changed forever!

For those of you still faithfully reading a year on and to those of you who still take the time to comment and offer support a year on – Thank you!

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  • Reply ksmind


    September 29, 2010 at 7:21 am
  • Reply dee

    Of course Im still reading! If I go back and read old blog posts I get very anxious. Im hoping for the detached feeling when our babies are here, that would be great.

    September 29, 2010 at 8:48 am
  • Reply bethjane

    Scary how fast the year has gone.
    SO happy for you and your gorgeous family.

    September 29, 2010 at 9:27 am
  • Reply talithasmom

    You also have been a pillar of support to many..
    When you celebrate another miracle..whatever miracle, me and babyT will still be here thanking God with you. 🙂

    September 29, 2010 at 9:42 am
  • Reply wheresmybun

    Wow! I can’t believe it’s been a year. So glad your’re heart has healed! xxx

    September 29, 2010 at 10:20 am
  • Reply Me

    A year already – how quick has that passed?

    I deleted my IF blog because I will never have that detached feeling because I’ll never get the prize – so it just had to go, I couldn’t not only not go back and read it but I just didn’t want it even “out there” anymore.


    September 29, 2010 at 11:31 am
  • Reply little29

    was reading way back then….still reading now – so happy you are happy!! 🙂

    September 29, 2010 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply waiting4amiracle

    Its amazing how much can happen in a year. I hope the following years continue to bless you. xxxx

    September 29, 2010 at 2:17 pm
  • Reply hayley

    and i am so happy for you!

    September 29, 2010 at 3:23 pm
  • Reply hollielee5

    You broke my heart with your news in Oct 09. But I was so incredibly over joyed with your news in December! It is an incredible journey. So happy for you and your family. :O)

    September 29, 2010 at 3:38 pm
  • Reply orbit365

    My heart also broke for you when you had your MC. And then it did a complete 360 when Ava came into your life. I still get goosebumps when I think about it.
    I am really so happy that your heart is whole and that you are healed. xx

    September 29, 2010 at 6:16 pm
  • Reply ttcnot2easy

    Life really is amazing Sharon – I was telling Travers just the other day that Isabella was conceived somewhere around my miscarriage last year and the start of my 4th DE IVF. So, essentially, my child was conceived – just not by us.

    September 30, 2010 at 9:05 am
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