Last night has got to rank up there as one of the worst nights of my life! I have NEVER battled such extreme anxiety in my entire life. It may seem dramatic to say, but really, last night I experienced hell. I writhed in mental agony in my bed the entire night. I don’t think I slept at any stretch for longer 20 minutes, I ground my teeth and shivered and shook and eventually at 4am I switched the light on and had a good old cry. I cried and cried and cried until there were no more tears and eventually it was time to get up and get to the clinic for the test I was so terrified of having.

When I arrived at VL, I was again wound so tight I could hardly catch my breath but thankfully had a very skilled nurse who was able to locate a vein despite my terrible state.

Thankfully, I think the IVF coordinators must have seen the terrible state I was in and within a half an hour they had called me back with the results. My expected result for today was between 130 – 150 my actual beta is 233!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to have a third beta on Thursday and then Intralipids scheduled for Friday. Of course, aside from the fab beta, I’m also really happy that it looks like I can come off the Gestone because my arse is KILLING me!! So I’ll be switching to suppossitories from today!!

Thanks again for everyone that sent me text messages, emails and messages of love and support, honestly, I don’t know how I would have gotten through the past couple of days without the love and support of my IF sisters!

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  • Reply Amanda

    Awesome Sharon! I never doubted for a minute that you were very very pregnant, just had a feeling:)

    October 13, 2009 at 9:18 am
  • Reply Hela

    This is just the most Fantastic news of the morning! Congrats, Sharon! May you and W have a lovely, fabulous full term pregnancy ahead with your little diamond(s)!

    October 13, 2009 at 9:22 am
  • Reply Beth

    Great news. Holding thumbs and everything else that things continue to go so well.

    October 13, 2009 at 9:24 am
  • Reply Yvonne

    WOoohoOOO!! Congrats on a simply awesome beta result, so happy for you πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 9:34 am
  • Reply Jenny

    Really, really great news Sharon! What an amazing day – Can you relax now? I hope so πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 9:40 am
  • Reply Adi

    Phew. Gosh, I’m so sorry for your night before. I hope the good news keeps pouring in. Take it easy. Your beta is huge – this is a strong one. Or two. Or eight.

    October 13, 2009 at 9:44 am
  • Reply Caragh

    Amazing new for you and W, also for the new addition to your family.
    So exciting.
    I hope you are starting to feel a bit better soon.
    You need the sleep while you can get it!

    October 13, 2009 at 9:54 am
  • Reply Rach

    Congrats on such a strong Beta, hope it continues to be good news for the rest of your pregnancy!


    October 13, 2009 at 9:57 am
  • Reply jan

    just a whole lot of love xxxxxx

    October 13, 2009 at 10:03 am
  • Reply SassyCupcakes

    Amazing! I hope that helps make you feel a little more comfortable. πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 10:06 am
  • Reply CalT

    Yipppppeeeeee!!!!!!! Congrats Shaz. What a fantastic beta!

    October 13, 2009 at 10:37 am
  • Reply Mich

    What a happy day!!

    October 13, 2009 at 11:27 am
  • Reply Cindy

    233! Fabulous! I’m sorry you had such an awful night, but I’m glad you finally got good news in the morning. Hang in there…one day at a time.

    October 13, 2009 at 11:28 am
  • Reply Gwen October 13, 2009 at 11:33 am
  • Reply Gwen

    eek, my comment came out blank!

    doing a little dance of glee Sharon, this is wonderful news.

    October 13, 2009 at 11:38 am
  • Reply Chrisle-Dubai

    Take an early night and pamper yourself!

    October 13, 2009 at 11:56 am
  • Reply Abs

    So happy for you Shaz!! It’s all going to go perfectly from here on out! Sending you big celebratory hugs filled with special love x x x

    October 13, 2009 at 12:14 pm
  • Reply SCY

    Whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Hooooooooooooooooooooooo! I told you so!! I told you so!!


    October 13, 2009 at 12:34 pm
  • Reply Julia

    Those are fabulous numbers. I’m so thrilled for you and will continue to pray for you, your DH and your baby/ies.
    ps…Can you get something from the doc for your anxiety?

    October 13, 2009 at 12:39 pm
  • Reply Katherine

    Great beta, if you’re anything like me, you still won’t relax though!! Brings back such memories of all my sleepless nights while the DH’s just sleep soundly, not a single worry at all!!!

    October 13, 2009 at 12:46 pm
  • Reply Amy

    This is fantastic! I’m doing virtual cartwheels of happiness for you!

    October 13, 2009 at 1:08 pm
  • Reply Hayley

    Oh my hat!!!!!!! I am so excited for you I can barely type.

    I have hardly read any blogs over the past few weeks, I have been so busy. And today, I just knew that when I checked in on your blig you would be pregnant! And you are!!!!!!!!!!!

    I cannot even imagine how you must be feeing, but whatever you are…just embarce it and enjoy it!


    October 13, 2009 at 1:13 pm
  • Reply Melanie

    That is FANTAAAAAAAAAASTIC news, so happy for you. It seems God has answered my prayers, as i have been praying that you would get good results and you did. Will keep you in my prayers everynight for the next 9 months…;)

    October 13, 2009 at 1:25 pm
  • Reply Kristin

    233 is WONDERFUL! I am so happy for you.

    October 13, 2009 at 2:01 pm
  • Reply Dee

    Congrats sweety! That is a good solid number!

    October 13, 2009 at 2:05 pm
  • Reply nicky

    congrats, Sharon, what wonderful news for you and W. What great numbers, will find out soon enough if it means more than one. How exciting! Continue to think of you everyday and how you must be feeling. Take care of yourself and your little miracle(s), love Nicky

    October 13, 2009 at 2:44 pm
  • Reply Cruella Deville

    What a wonderful beta count!! Hiehiehie, I think you are going to have to stock up on more than one of each thing you intend to buy in the baby department… Excitement!!! πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 4:19 pm
  • Reply Elana Kahn

    Wheeeeee!!!! That’s incredibly awesome!!!! I’m going to go check out babymed so I can make a chart and see how super your “line” looks. πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 6:01 pm
  • Reply Quiet Dreams


    So sorry about your night of misery, but so thankful that joy came in the morning. πŸ™‚

    October 13, 2009 at 6:02 pm
  • Reply Lea White

    Oh wow, what a fantastic post!

    October 13, 2009 at 7:47 pm
  • Reply Kirsty

    Fantabulous!! Glad you can now stop the bum burners too! x

    October 13, 2009 at 8:24 pm
  • Reply Pamela

    So very glad to hear you survived the night and got such wonderful results!

    October 13, 2009 at 9:50 pm
  • Reply Kait

    I’m so glad your beta ended up being great. Congratulations. I’m actually calling Kaiser now to get my first beta number. The NP who ordered the test said she wouldn’t call me with it until she knew the second one (on Thursday) but screw that, I’m calling now. I hope they have it.

    I’m sorry you’re having such anxiety. I’d give you advice but I’m the same way right now. I’m SO worried I’m going to have another ectopic, I really don’t know how to handle anything else in my life.

    I just got my number! 3170 at 18DPO (I think). That is way higher than last time. I hope that is a good sign. Anyway, congrats on your great beta! I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it’s a healthy and sticky bean.

    October 13, 2009 at 10:33 pm
  • Reply CeCe Garrett

    I tossed and turned all night wondering what your number was going to be… then, when I woke up.. I had a beaten and battered package on my doorstep. My bear I sent ou had returned home to me.. Seems when Abby told me she put kisses in the box for you, she meant the Hershey’s variety. Here I thought she was being sweet and blowing kisses, when she was actually putting chocolate food stuffs in a package that would have to pass customs. When I saw Bear, I knew today would be an awesome day for you. I love that you have great numbers.. and I cannot wait to spoil this little one!

    October 14, 2009 at 1:15 am
  • Reply Mel

    Congratulations! Amazing news πŸ™‚

    October 14, 2009 at 4:17 am
  • Reply Stacey

    Fantastic!!!! I’m so glad to read about the great results!

    October 14, 2009 at 11:51 pm
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